life goes on (completed)

panicked

Pam's POV

"Why am I only in a coma, Leonie?! You said you would pull me back up!"

I said as I continued pacing back and forth.

"Pam, I think you should stay on Earth. It's not your time. Ethan needs you."

"But I can't live with the pain of Carter dying. I can't live like this. And I can't get help. It doesn't work. I'm sick of being treated like I'm crazy. I'm not crazy! I'm just a grieving mother. But no one sees that. Not even Fergal. Everyone just thinks I'm crazy."

I said as I sat on the bed and started crying. Leonie sat next to me and rubbed my back.

"I understand what you're going through. Just take a deep breath and calm down. Just think about what you're leaving behind. You're leaving behind all your kids that love you so much."

"But think about what I'm gaining! All my kids I lost. I went through heartbreak when I lost them all. I'm getting my babies back."

"But your kids are gonna be heartbroken over your death."

"They'll get over me. Fergal will console them and then he'll marry some girl and be happy with her. He's really good at replacing me. He replaced me months after I died. He doesn't love me enough to be loyal after my death. The kids will get used to her and call her mom and I'll be left in the dust. I won't matter to them anymore. So it's settled. I'm staying here."

I said as I smiled. I finally get what I want. To stay in heaven for forever.