Shawn Mendes Imagines

"don't ever say..."

those three words. three simple words that either mean so much, or so little to someone. some people let it just roll of their tongue without even thinking about it, but there are some that think about it carefully. they don't say it unless they truly mean it. i'm one of the people that rarely ever say it unless i do, but shawn just let it flow right out of mouth. 

he didn't love me. i knew he didn't from the beginning, but i loved him so much that i rather hear his lies than nothing at all. 

i leaned against the rusty railing. i peeled off the chipped white paint as my mind wandered with thoughts. the sun was setting causing a mix of oranges, pinks, and yellows to paint the sky. the top of my apartment building was the best place to watch LA sunsets. the tall buildings that were surrounded by the setting sun had faint lights that were visible through the windows. i looked away from the night sky and looked down at the passing traffic. 

he didn't love you y/n, quit thinking about him. i had been telling myself that for weeks, but for some reason i wanted to be wrong. so wrong. 

i pushed myself off the railing and started to head back to my apartment. i looked up from my beat up black converses and met a pair of familiar brown eyes. 

"i figured you be up here." shawn said pushing himself off the brick wall he was leaning against. 

"what are you doing here?" i asked confused. my heart was beating faster than ever, my legs were shaking making it difficult for me to keep my balance. 

"i wanted to watch the sunset." shawn shrugged. 

"we live in california shawn, there is hundreds of places to watch the sunset." i said crossing my arms over my chest.

"true, but this is the best place." he said as he walked over the railing. he leaned his body over the rail and dangled his muscular arms over the edge. i watched as his head looked up and around at the night sky that had filled with stars now. 

"whatever." i rolled my eyes and opened the door making a creaking noise. 

"y/n," shawn let out a sigh and shook his head, "i didn't come here for the damn sunset, i came here to talk to you." shawn turned around and rested his back on the rail as he crossed his arms over his chest. his biceps became more visible through the black v-neck t-shirt's sleeves. 

"about what?" i asked softer than i intended. i hadn't seen shawn in a month, i haven't even talked to him since that night. 

"why did you tell sam i didn't love you?" he looked hurt and confused. i knew i shouldn't of talked to sam about our break up. i should of known he would run and tell shawn.

 i rolled my eyes before answering,  "because you didn-." he cut me off before i could finish. 

"you really think i didn't love you?" he scoffed before continuing talking in his cold and bitter tone, "if i didn't love you would i of flown thousands of miles to see you if it were only for a day? would i of bought you all the things you said you wanted? i used to talk about you all the time to my friends," he smiled as he shook his head and looked down at the ground, "they used to tell me that i was too in love with you," he looked back up. his smile had faded and his eyes were dark, "so don't ever say i didn't love you. i love you more than anyone or anything in this world y/n." 

i was speechless. i felt selfish and stupid. my heart was beating rapidly. the fact that he said "i love you," instead of, "i loved you," made me weak in the knees. 

"shawn," i walked closer to him before continuing, "i was hurt and angry. i thought you didn't love me because you broke up with me. my mind was a mess and i couldn't get over the fact that it was really over. it wasn't just some stupid fight we had, and we would be over it in the morning." shawn stepped closer to me as i spoke. their was only a small space between him and i. 

"i love you and i always have." he said in almost a whisper. his eyes flickered from my lips to my eyes. his large warm hand found it's way to my lower back as he leaned in to kiss me. the feeling of his soft lips on mine made a fire ignite in me. i kissed him back with passion. i rested my arms on his shoulders and ran my fingers through his hair. never would i ever say he didn't love me.