Desire | Shawn Mendes

FIFTY FIVE

Song of the Chapter: Entertainer- ZAYN

"I'll watch you / I'll laugh / And fuck with you..."

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"Samuel?" Shawn asks me.

"Nope." I shake my head.

"Hm. Swanson?"

"Uh uh."

"Shawn Jr.?"

"Not even in your wildest dreams, pal."

"And you are sure I'm gonna love this name?"

"Wait. How do you feel about Italian names? Cause I got it from this film I watched once and I liked the name." I tell him.

Shawn currently sat on the bean bag in the middle of the room as he watched me paint abstract art on the canvas behind me. He gently strummed away at an acoustic guitar that created the perfect mood to the room. My hair was in a messy braid done by Shawn and I had a thin line of red paint against my forehead. He looked at me before glancing over to the bed sheet from yesterday that was spread out in the same spot by the window.

"I still had some paint on me when I went in today." Shawn says.

"Yeah?" I ask.

"Yeah. But it was worth it."

"It totally was." I nod before going back to paint again.

"Are you still up for Spain?" Shawn asks me. "Because it would mean seeing another doctor and I don't want to put you through more exams."

"Do you not want to do Spain?" I ask him.

"I'm wanting to do whatever you want." He replies.

"I still want to do Spain. I already envisioned little S..." I stop mid sentence and purse my lips together and quickly turn around to see Shawn.

His eyebrows are raised up and he has a goofy smile as he stops playing the guitar and weakly points at me, "Ah!"

"Shut up." I quickly mutter before turning back to paint.

"Aw, did someone have a slip up?" Shawn asks me.

"I don't know what you're talking about." I shrug.

"Someone almost had a slip up." He says.

"Do you really have two middle names for her?" I ask, slightly changing the conversation.

"Yeah." He says. "They're pretty cute. Actually, one of them is Elle." Holding my brush, I turn around and place my hands on my hips as I look at Shawn. "Do you not like that?"

"Peter is going to be one middle name for one son and Raul will be the other middle name for the other son, if we have another one." I say.

"Look at us. We're so fucking cute." Shawn says.

"I wanna punch us in the face." I say.

"You want two boys, eh?" He asks me.

"I mean, yeah. As much as I want a girl I don't want her to possibly go through what I'm going through." I say with a small shrug.

"You're getting a girl. I'll give you one." Shawn says. "And she's gonna love her very beautiful name."

"To be honest, I'm kind of terrified." I say as I bite at my lip. "Is it a good thing that we don't know the names? I mean, what if one day our kids say they hate their names?"