{ this is a flashback to chapter thirty six ik it's been long so i just wanted to point that out }.
"what did you say?"mark whispers, holding onto his bracelet that jackson had given him a while ago. youngjae lets out a big smile and nods his head.
"he's not dead mark,"youngjae says. mark's eyes light up and he feels all his worries wash away. he was okay. his boyfriend, the love of his life, was okay.
"he's alive,"mark whispers to himself, tears starting to fall at the realization. jackson wasn't gone. he is alive. mark doesn't have to be lonely anymore.
"oh my god he's alive. he's okay!" mark yells, rushing to get his phone. youngjae puts a hand up glances at the clock. mark realizes how early it is and sighs, flopping back on the couch.
"i don't think he can facetime anyways, his friend called me,"he states, jaebum nodding his head. mark nods back, looking at the pair while jisung sits a bit confused at the whole situation since mark did just say that he was dead.
"thank you guys so much."
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"okay youngjae! this is one of your last visits. the baby is all healthy and ready to be born soon,"the doctor says, referring to youngjae's large belly.
"we do however need to talk about the birth procedure,"the doctor explains, propping up his elbows on his knees.
"it is going to be painful no matter what drug we put in you. i just want you both to prepare for the worst to happen. most babies from males do happen to somehow die throughout the process of giving birth. often times so do the carriers,"jaebum's eyes widen, tightening his grip on youngjae's hand. he couldn't lose him especially if there's a chance that he could lose the baby as well.
"b-but youngjae will be okay right? he can't die this young, please tell me you can do something to save him,"jaebum pleads. youngjae caresses his thumb over jaebum's finger.
"i cant promise anything jaebum, i'm sorry,"he says. cleaning up and wishing the couple all the best. jaebum feels empty, there's a chance he could lose both of the most important people in his life.
"jaebum,"youngjae says, waking him up from the trance he was caught in. youngjae was going to start giving signs of birth, which would now make jaebum the most scared hes ever been in his whole entire life.
"hey,"youngjae says, wiping the few tears that fell from the elder's eyes. jaebum grabs his boyfriend, pulling him into his arms and sobbing into his neck. he begins to mumble out words explaining how he couldn't lose youngjae.
"i'll be with you no matter what. i will always be here with you."
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"i'm sorry if this upsets you, but i was wondering. how did you and ara survive the birthing process?"jaebum asks. he was going absolutely insane over this happening. chen nods his head, taking a sip of his drink as he watches his daughter talking to youngjae's tummy.
"it was hard, painful. we almost lost her. i survived throughout the whole process but if ara hadn't, i don't know what i would've done. losing a baby is hard jaebum,"chen replies. that gave jaebum a glint of hope, youngjae could survive.
"the doctor says be prepared for the worst because you really do need to be. lay said i was insanely pale, that i looked like i was going to die. he wasn't prepared for that and cause a bit of a scene,"chen says, chuckling a bit at the memory. lay threw a bunch of medical supplies everywhere and screamed at the nurses. he got kicked out of the room.
"one thing you also have to prepared for,"lay says, coming over to the pair. he takes a sip of his drink and winces from this memory.
"when you see that baby coming out of his dick. you are going to have so much respect for him,"he says. jaebum's eyes widen, imaging the pain youngjae is going to go through. ara squeals, bringing the boys out of their conversation.
"can i paint his tummy jaebummie? please?"ara asks, holding up a bunch of finger paints. jaebum looks at youngjae who had the biggest smile on his face.
"of course, let me help,"he says, going over to the boy who lifts his shirt off so the two can paint. jaebum puts a heart, circling his finger on the boy's stomach. ara lets out a gasp.
"hey! bad baby he kicked and ruined my painting!!"the boys start laughing and chen ruffles her hair. everything was all good, it was happy.
everything was perfect.
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hiya! another filler chapter i'm sorry i do have plans for this book still but it is going to be ending soon so thank you to everyone who has been here throughout the process of creating this story!!
also hi the concert is in 4 days i'm screaming.
question : favorite color ? ( did i already do this ? )
answer : yellow (':
