Martyr's Love (GXG)

Chapter Forty Six

Eunice

"Hey.." mahina pero sapat para marinig nila ako..

Lumingon sa akin si Cams then she smile at me weakly

I see how she shift her gaze to Andy.

I see sadness on how Cams look at Andy.

Just like me.. she's hurting too... Hurt to see Andy like this.  

It hurts to see and to know that your loosing someone who were just around you. 

Naiinis ako sa sarili ko.. I let her go long time  ago... I should have move on from now..  Pero hindi ko maintindihan ang sarili why I always running back to her kahit na alam kong masasaktan ako sa huli..

I guess it was just a though of letting her go.. Coz I know... surreal.. my heart never know how to let her go..

Kasi alam kong hanggang ngayon siya pa din.. Si Andy pa din kahit anong gawin ko.

Cams look at me.. and I just nod as a reply.

Agad naman itong tumayo at tinapik ako sa balikat bago umalis.

I know what she meant by those gesture.

For the passed months.. it's either its  me, her and ate Nicole lang ang kinakausap niya. 

The rest of the day she just spent it all on her own.

Everyday I am hoping na sana makita ko siya ulit ngumiti.. yung totoong ngiti... yung hindi napipilitan lang... 

Yung Andy na kilala ko... 

"Andy." tawag ko sa pangalan niya as I sit next to her.

I want to hug her the moment she look at me. 

I wonder why I never get use to the way she look... the way pain written all over her face...

"Let's go home." sabi ko sa kanya. "You need to rest na."

Umiling ito saka muling ibinaling ang tingin sa papalubog na araw. 

"Wag ng matigas ang ulo Andy." sabi ko sa kanya "Pa dilim na oh.."

Nakatingin lang ito sa palubog na araw.

"You don't have to do this Eunice." Naring kong sabi nito 

I take a deep sighed "I know but I want too."

"I'm sorry." sabi nito saka lumingon sa akin "Alam kong na hihirapan na kayo sa akin."

I smile at her "We understand." sabi ko saka tumayo sa harap nito "Tara na." sabay abot ng kamay ko sa kanya.

Tinignan nito ang kamay ko sabay iling saka yumuko.

I kneel down infront of her. I take her hand na naka patong sa lap nito.

naramdaman ko na may pumatak na luha sa kamay ko. Kaya napa angat ako ng tingin sa kanya.

She's crying... again she's crying.

I raise my hand and wipe those tears away..

"Andy.." I call her name.. pero nakayuko lang ito. "Stop crying please.." I plead "I hate to see you like this." I honestly told her

"Eunice..."

I didn't say any words basta niyakap ko na lang siya.. Hindi ko alam kung hanggang kela siya ganito... Hanggang kelan niya bibitbitin lahat ng sakit on her own.

We tried our best to be there for her.. stay with her.. be here when she need us.. 

But she keep on putting herself on the edge.. closing her doors to us.. creating walls around her...