Martyr's Love (GXG)

Chapter Forty Seven

It's almost a year now.. 

And for the passed months..

I got used to functioning. Function like a normal human being.. 

Breating.. eating.. talking..

Life changed since the accident and I got used to everything. Pakiramdam ko para na lang akong isang robot na sumusunod sa lahat ng nasa paligid ko.

As if I am letting things passed through my very eyes.

But I can say I had changed... I changed to suit for the life that I have now... 

I've been working on my dad's company...

I worked as what he expected from me... To be the best...

That failure is not an option. 

All the board members admired me for what I had done to the company from the short period of time.

They all praised me... nakaka tawang isipin na yung mga taong ibinuhos nila ang buong buhay nila sa negosyo would give those praises. 

The fact the I just graduated a a year ago surprised them.

Well not just them but  almost the whole business circle.

For the passed months that I am working in our company after the accident... my dad has given me those looks that I never though he'll give me..

Those looks as if he is saying I am the daughter that he wanted to have...  that he is proud of me... as if he is saying that I am meant to where I am right now.

But the same way he always have the looks that I cannot fail him. 

For the passed few months... all I ever did was to focus on my work.

What had Eunice told me few months ago.. 

Was a hummer that hit me.. hit me so hard... hit me that brought me back to reality...

she was right... she is always been right... 

When I am so drowned in pain... at that point when all I ever felt was pain... she was there and said those right words... the words that I had to hear. At the right moment... at the right time na kailangan ko iyong marinig.

Eunice is always been the person who can shake me up... sa mga bagay na nagagawa kong mali... 

I turned my swivel chair to look at the outside window... 

I am looking how the street starts to be busy.. how traffic startinf to build up.

Same old thing that I ussually do every afternoon.

Then I shift my gaze.

I am looking at the sun to set... 

Watching it cools me down.. it energized me.. 

for the passed months.. I am doing this.. everyday.. watching the sun to set...

I can't deny.. It reminds me of something... remind me of someone.

And sunset reminds me of her.. how perfect it was that time.. kung paano ko hawakan yung mga kamay niya... which I wished I never let go.

pero tulad ng sunset.. no matter beautiful things are it has to end.

I miss you.. i miss you so bad.

Tears escape from my eyes..

Her memories still have effect of me..

she still have an effect of me... and feelings are like bomb na any moment pwedeng sumabog.

But I have to keep everything inside me..