Martyr's Love (GXG)

Chapter Thirty Five

D@mn! D@mn!D@man! I can't help but to curse... Alam ko na kung bakit siya umalis.. alam ko na kung bakit niya ako iniwan...

"Andy..." tawag sa akin ni Cassy.. 

I look at her and smile at her fakely. "I'm okey Cassy."

Lumapit siya sa akin at umupo sa tabi ko. 

"It's okey if you'll tell me or not." 

Umiling lang ako saka muling tinuon yung pansin ko sa screen ng laptop ko.

I just finished reading an article about her.. the raising ramp model in the US.

It is clear now.. why she left.. why she abandon me.. 

Ang ganda niya ngayon... no.. mali..... lalo siyang gumanda ngayon...

And knowing this.. I know marami ang nag hahabol sa kanya ngayon

And it hurts knowing that maybe.. just maybe she's into relationship right now..

But we never break up.. So technically we were still together.

I am looking at her picture... d@mn! I miss her... i miss her so bad... I want her so bad... Gusto ko siyang yakapin... I want to feel her in my embrace..

But my mind starts to question.. why didn't she tell me? If she just wanted to be in the international scene, alam naman niya na I will be the first person who will support her.. Alam niya that I won't block her way.. Pero bakit? Dahil ba sa akin? Dahil ba pag nalaman ng tao that she's inrelationship with me ay baka ma sira ang career nito? 

I really don't know the answer... wala akong malamang sagot... Nakatingin lang ako sa picture niya ng sinara bigla ni Cassy yung laptop ko.

"Tama na yan." sabi niya with her comforting voice ng tumingin ako sa kanya. She met my gaze with a smile. "Your amazing Andy." she pause "maybe she did it because she wanted to protect you." Hindi ko alam pero gumaan yung pakiramdam ko sa sinabi niya. Am I thinking so loud para marinig niya yung gumugulo sa isip ko at masagot ito? 

"Thank you." I said then hug her.

"Wala yun..." she said "Kaibigan kita eh." and I feel hint pain in her voice. 

Eunice

It's been months since I left... It's been 4 hell months... without her... away from her... And I miss her.. I miss her so bad... Araw araw na wala ako sa tabi seems like I am a living dead.. everyday I feel like I am in a battle field and I need to survive...I have to survive... I want her.. I need her.. she's my life.. the reason of my breathing... but have to be away from her.. I have to stay away from her... Kailangan kong tiisin yung hirap at sakit na wala siya sa tabi ko... because I made decision and I have to stand by it... I left for us.. I left our sake.. I left for her. 

But seeing her happy without me is breaking my heart. Seeing her smile makes my heart torn apart... that smile noon ako yung dahilan... yung ngiting yun na gusto kong  ako lang ang nag bibigay. I know it's my fault but I can't help it. I am supposed to be happy.. dapat masaya ako kasi nakikita ko siyang masaya... coz I want is to see her happy... pero hindi ko magawa knowing nagagawa niyang maging masaya na wala ako... knowing na pwede siyang mawala sa akin. Looking at their picture makes me want to cry. Makes me want to go back hug her and never plan to let her go.. pero hindi pwede. I have to stay.. I have to prove something.. Just only one month... 1 buwan na lang.. Makakabalik na ako... 1 buwan na lang makikita ko na siya ulit.. mayayakap ko na siya ulit.. mahahalikan ko na siya ulit. But hoping with that one month left..  she can still hang on me.. sa isang buwan sana hindi siya tuluyang mawala sa akin. 

Knowing she's with the person na kayang kaya siyang agawin kung gugustuhin nito.. kahit walang gawin.. kahit wala siyang sabihin.. just being herself alone can make Andy can fall in love with her... Inlove with her again. Masakit mang isipin pero kailangan kong tanggapin na yun yung totoo. Na sa isang iglap pwede siyang agawin sa akin ni Cassy.. Sa isang iglap pwede siyang mawala.. But I have to trust her.. I have hond on to the though that she love. The day I said yes to this whole thing.. the day when I accepted it.. the day when I said those word.. 

"It's a deal Mr. Sandoval."

I know... I'm putting too much risk. But for Andy I know it is worth the risk.

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