In The Arms Of An Angel (ON HOLD)

CHAPTER 63

"You're crazy..."

His prognosis was met with a few seconds of complete silence then:

"Wow! Grabe sya! Crazy agad? Di man lang dumaan sa delusional or sa naghahallucinate?! Akala ko ba wala munang judgement hanggang di pa naprocess ang mga bagay bagay?" She asked indignantly as she purposefully strode towards him. She wiped away the tear stains on her face and squared her shoulders, ready for a confrontation.

"Dei, honestly sa lahat kasi ng ayoko sa tao eh yung nag-iimbento ng kwento para makakuha ng sympathy mula sa iba." He said exasperatedly.

"Again, wow! At sa tingin mo ganun akong tao? Psychologist ka,di ba? Ano sa tingin mo ang mapapala ko kung mag-imbento ako ng ganung klaseng kwento? Sabihin mo nga sa akin kung talagang nababasa mo sa kilos at tingin ko na nag-iimbento lang ako. Titigan mo akong mabuti." She challenged him. She walked up in front of him and stood so close that their bodies are almost touching from head to toes just so she can stare up at him defiantly. He involuntarily took a step back probably because of the amount of indignation she is exuding at the moment.

"Dei...imposible ang sinasabi mo na ako ang nakilala mo four months ago sa bundok! Its either nag-iimbento ka ng storya or you are seriously mistaking me for someone else..." He is obviously trying to control his temper with her but Dei will not back down until he understands. Until they both understand.

"At inassume mo agad na nag-iimbento lang ako, ganun?! Salamat, ah!" She crossed her arms in front of her morosely. She wants to be angry because of his stubbornness but she understands where he is coming from.

"Dei, how do you expect me to believe such a story?Alam mo ba kung nasaan ako four months ago?" He asked her as they continue to stare at each other's eyes.

"Alam ko....I know you had a mountaineering accident almost a year ago doon din sa Mt. Banahaw...Nagkakilala tayo around five months after it happened..." She said softly.

She can tell that RJ is getting more exasperated with the things she is saying but she is determined to let him know everything so he can also help her make sense of what is happening between them.

"I don't know kanino mo nalaman ang tungkol sa accident ko pero your story still doesn't make any sense because I was in a coma for six months after that accident! I was in the hospital at nakabalik lang ako sa bundok na iyon almost three months after recuperating. Nung time lang na nagkita tayo sa may bangin, nung akala ko na tatalon ka. So paano ako mapupunta sa bundok four months ago? Ano ba talaga ang gusto mong patunayan dito?" He asked her frustratedly.

"RJ, ikaw mismo ang nagkwento sa akin ng tungkol sa aksidente mo. Yung mga bagay na napanaginipan mo...yung magkausap tayo...magkasama sa gubat...naglalakad sa tabi ng isang sapa...nakahiga sa damuhan...nangyari sila lahat...sa panaginip ko rin...four months ago...di ko alam paano...hindi ko rin alam bakit..." She narrated hesitantly. She can see in his eyes the internal battle going on in his head and she can't blame him for not believing. Her story also sounded crazy to her own ears, what more for him.

"Dei, I'm really sorry for calling you crazy earlier but what you are saying is really quite outrageous. The psychologist in me is trying really hard to assess you right now. I hope you understand why it's very difficult for me to process this...ang labo kasi talaga, eh!" He tried to explain as he tentatively held her arm. She can feel bolts of electricity course through her arm from his hand again but she valiantly ignored them to concentrate on the issue at hand. She stepped sideways and watch his hand fall to his side.

"Believe it or not, I understand you, RJ...seriously I do. Sa tingin mo ba bakit di ko agad masabi sa'yo ang totoo? Kasi naanticipate ko na ang magiging reaction mo...ang pwedeng maging reaction ng ibang tao kung ikukwento ko lahat 'to. Kahit kay Val hindi ko pa nakwento ng buo ang mga nangyari sa akin four months ago because I don't think she'll  fully understand. Kahit kasi sarili ko pinag-isipan ko nang nababaliw noong una...pero hindi ako nag-iimbento. Totoo lahat ng sinabi ko. With you being a psychologist, I was hoping you could shed light to what is happening to me...to us. Kasi nga hindi normal 'to. Kaya ako nagdecide na magconfide sa'yo...Kanina sabi mo you are starting to like me...tapos ganyan reaction mo? " She asked him, feeling hurt.

"Dei, I'm really sorry... " Is all he can say to her now.

"No, it's me who is sorry. Sinarili ko na lang dapat ito. Di na dapat ako nagsabi sa iyo. Pwede ka nang umuwi. Thank you na lang sa dinner at sa libreng evaluation. At least ngayon nasabi ko na sa iyo so kahit papaano lumuwag na ang pakiramdam ko. Pakilock na lang yung pinto paglabas mo..." She told him in an indifferent voice.

"Dei...pag-usapan natin 'to..." He was trying to touch her arm but Dei moved away so he was left grasping air between them.

"Please, RJ. Just leave..." She pleaded. She had enough drama for a day.

"Babalik ako bukas...baka kailangan ko lang itulog ito..." He insisted. He tried to reach out to her again but she sidestepped him again.

"Good night, RJ."

She turned her back on him without another word. She heard him sigh deeply followed by his footsteps as he walk away from her...a turning of the doorknob...a short silence...then the closing of the door. Now she is left alone in their living room berating herself silently.

"Ginusto mong magpakatotoo sa kanya, di ba? So ano ngayon ang ipinag-iinarte mo dyan, Dei?"