Hope your all enjoying , sorry if I'm boaring yous but I promise I have a good story up my sleeve ! Also sorry it takes me so long to upload , it's just hard to find encouragement and energy and I wanna try put out good chapters that you'll enjoy , thankyou for the Support , lotsa love
That night , I was broken : I love him and I lost him over agian , I went through that shitty pain , yet agian . Except a tiny tiny part of me felt stronger than I did the first time , only the tiniest bit , but it was still something . I slept in his hoodie that night , in his bed . Maybe that wasn't the best decision but it comforted me, having his surrounds around me , his scent close to me , it put my heart at ease almost , but now maybe it wasn't a good idea , because I can't have him , not now , not anymore , not ever again , and that breaks me . The harms done now though . I pull my hair into a messy bun and adjust myself before walking out of Brooklyn's bedroom and into the main room where everyone else is , still wearing his hoodie . I enter the room and everyone looks up at me . "What yous all looking at ?" I roll my eyes "Are you okay ?" Andy asks "Yeah " I sigh looking down. "That was a stupid question fovvs " Mikey joins . " well sorry for caring " he chimes sassily " what I mean is I'm not ok , far from it actually , but I'm alive " I say with a slight smile . "Anyone want tea ?" Rye asks tryna lighten the atmosphere "Me" I pop my hand up . I'm at that rock bottom moment again , I have been for awhile but since last night , I feel like I did at the very start of the brake up , broken and fragile like a glass that's been smashed and can't be fixed , that's my heart and soul right now . Aside from Brooklyn , the other person I need right now because I have the other boys . Is my Harv
Me- come to the boys / ur 2nd home please ? Since u love me , bring me McDonald's breakfast tooo?😉 this girl needs her big brother Rn for real . 😘
MyHarv- okay just for youuu, I heard what happened last night 🙁 I'll be there soon gorg , ur lucky I love you 😘😉
Ahh he makes me happy , honestly like not to go all cringe & shit but we have one of the closest a bonds ever , it's amazing , & I don't know what I would do without him , he's my world and proud don't cut it . I manage to sort my heartbroken self out by getting a shower , getting ready etc, and putting a smile on my face , spending time with the boys, tryna lift my spirits before Harvey comes .
He comes walking through the door holding my McDonald's in one arm and his other arm is out as he shouts my name and I run through to the passage where he is , he smiles and lifts his eyebrows up as I run up into his arms . His strong arms wrap around me & hug me tight , feeling abit more content now I'm with him . Only a brother can love like a father , annoy like a sister , care like a mother and Support like only one of my closest friends .
I chill with the people I like to call family before deciding to go outside and get rye to take an Instagram photo of me .
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The caption , brook, the hoodie , brooks, the no makeup , cry looking face with a smile on , because of brook , he knows this is aimed at him , he has to clearly , I just cba with the fans starting to ask questions or hate On me again , as much as I'm Grateful for them all , you know what their like . While thinking about brook, like the same old day , dwelling on being in his arms , feeling his touch, his kind words , loving him happily, I unexpectedly get a message from Luke , his bestfriend.
Luke- hey , um , I hope ur okay , well ur obviously not but I wish you all the best and I'm always here for you , I could only imagine what you and Brooklyn feel for each other, ur a strong gorgeous girl and we're proud of you with your anxiety and depression , the bab- and well you know . I just wanna let you know that Brook is staying over here for a bit, just so u aren't worrying anymore than usual . Missing you , keep well , our catch-up is well over due ! 😘
Me- hey stranger ! Thankyou for letting me know it means a lot, I'm honestly at such a shit place Rn and I haven't got the one who means the most by my side , but I'm not gonna boar you For ever with all the depressing stuff . I need to see you soon tho ! Honestly just thinking of getting mortal, fuck it Yano , I need to go clubbing after all this , let my hair down , our catch up is over due , what do u say ? U down ? 😏😆😘
Luke- OMG yes girl let's do it !! Tomorrow night ! Be ready. 😆😆😏😘
Your probably thinking how weird this is with me and Luke acting so close but actually , we've always been close , we're like as close as me and the roadtrip boys are and you know that's hell of a lot. It's just since Yano I got to know him over the years because of brook and then we got closer and finally in a relationship which mean me and Luke got closer and yeah!
1) I get to see Luke tomorrow, 2) he's like the closest I can get to a person to brook, not that I'm using him it's just a little extra comforting , 3) after everything , which I'm not gonna go into detail of the shit I've been though / going through or feeling , I'm finally having a night out to myself that I enjoy and damn I'm looking forward to something even just the tiniest bit .
it's still something , for me , considering it's awfully hard to stay positive and excited and stuff when I'm like this especially when it's stuck around me for a long period of time .
