Falling for my brothers BestFriend ; sequel

Chapter 18

I walk through the passage where I pass Mikey walking the opposite way , back through  as he lifts his eyebrows up in concern , assuring I'm okay as I nod and smile .
"Stop staring at me you pervert " I wind brook up as I catch him looking at me yet again .
"Yano what that reminds me of ?" He starts laughing
"That night I stayed at urs and you said the same thing " he smiled
"How could I forget about that night " I smile as does he and we are stuck there again in the same situation as 5 minutes ago . Staring at one another. "I've missed you " He faintly smiles.
"I've missed you " I smile slightly as I look at him then put my head down .
"Okay umm, lets put the boxes in my room now ?" He says , breaking the awkwardness.
"Would help " I laugh abit as so does he .
We enter his room and his beds messed up abit
"Okay so this needs washed " he speaks as he puts the boxes down and is about to strip his bed . "No don't" "why ? I don't know who's been in this bed since me " " me last night , why would you wanna wash that " I smile as I look at him with a duhh' expression across my face . "That's even more reason to wash it" he replies with the same expression .
With that said , I stick my middle finger up and flip him off as I smile sarcastically "I hate you "
"And I love you " he replies back as I stop and look him in the eyes . " I wish I hated you , it would be so much easier " I admit as I faintly smile as I look into his eyes before looking down and walking out , refusing to be upset .

I sit down on the sofa to relax and begin scrolling down my phone at some insta edits as Brooklyn comes walking behind me and sits
Onto the sofa with me .

"She's fit "  brook says smirking , looking over my phone .
"I know "
"Shame about real life tho , must be photoshop or whatever they call it ?" He replies jokingly , winding me up yet again. He succeeds as I open my mouth and eyes widely , shocked as I look at him. "Dic—" i get cut off As his finger is placed on my mouth , signalling to be quiet "don't swearrrr" " ur so annoying " I hit him on the arm playfully as I winge . " no violence " he says as he grabs both my wrists to refrain me . We end up on the floor in a messy play fight .

I like this , well I hate it but I love it , I can't be with him which I hate but I love that after this time Atleast we're finally in each other's surroundings and talking face to face , playing . As 'friends ' I like that . But it hurts . It's like we both have these overwhelming feelings for one another , we both know that, even the boys and everyone who aren't the ones in the relationship know that . But despite that , we can't be together any more , and when it's so strong and so real . So precious, it fucks you up . Its like when it first all started , 2 years ago. When I said
I need to turn my feelings off .... if that's even possible .
"We're going out " all the boys shout and slam the door behind them . "Im comi-" ..... too late . They purposely did that didn't they . I've never seen those 4 boys get out the house so quickly .
"What's wrong its not that bad being stuck with me is it " brook smiles .
"There's only so much I can do . I love being like this with you , but it hurts , because I can't handle my emotions , my feelings , for you ." I tell him honestly as I'm sat up on the bench .
" you think I don't get that ? You think I don't know the feeling . I know it all too well " he admits finally .
"It's hard isn't it , no one could understand if they wanted to , it's fucking destroying ." He speaks in a sadder lowered tone as he comes towards me .
You can do this
It's ok
You've done so good so far .

Nope .
My eyes begin welling up and a tear rolls down my cheek as I try look down and act as though I'm okay .
"Baby please . Don't " he speaks as he lifts my head up gently and looks through me.
He's the most purest human on this earth I truly love that man with every bit of me .
"You can't call me that "
" I know . Baby . It just sounds good , I can't imagine it being different " he speaks sincerely
He's standing in between my legs and our faces are inches apart. Still feeling completely comfortable with each other as the tension grows . He's gorgeous damn .

"I love you " we both blurt out in sync after gazing into each others eyes like what feels like forever, taking in every detail.
That I love you was true . It belonged . It meant something. We were in love & heartbroken . but we were keeping it together .