Falling for my brothers BestFriend ; sequel

Chapter 43

After what happened the other day I've been abit nervous to see Jason again , but he's my boyfriend and I have to face him at some point .
Everyone was out when he came over so they don't know the situation, and I'm not telling them either because I know exactly what will happen .
It's been 2 days since , and he's messaged me asking to go over .
Harvey keeps asking why I'm so jumpy at the slightest thing but I can't be bothered to tell him "oh it's because I'm scared incase he comes here , or Incas you hit me because Jason did and he's meant to care for me so what if you turn on me like he did too " so I'm just staying quiet and carrying on as normal .

I get ready to go see him and spend the day with him , I think it'll be okay , maybe it was just a one off thing.

I slip into a pair of grey joggers and a white t-shirt , I put my hair in a messy bun .

"H-hey" I smile as Jason answers the door
"Hey" he comes closer to me as I flinch by accident .
"Why you so jumpy for, come here " he laughs as he embraces me in a hug .
Um maybe because you hit me the other day and you always change on me suddenly , but never mind let's not start an argument I think to myself .
I'm so confused how he can act as though everything's okay and as if it never happened . 

He looks me up and down "you could have made some effort "
Oh damn , great way to make me feel bad about myself . He's my boyfriend he should always think I look nice
"O-h y-yeah, I know - I'm sorry I didn't have much energy today "
We go upstairs and he puts Netflix on .
He gets under the covers and lifts his arm up signalling me to cuddle into him , I get comfortable and try relax , slowly feeling less tense .
We've been together for a few hours spending time together in bed before his sister comes in . We end up playing a few games as the three of us, once she leaves the room i decide to bring up the situation
"So Um you know the other day how you hit me ?"
"That makes me sound so bad " as he laughs
Well Jason it's the truth .
"Well I want you to know I wasn't cheating on you . I was just innocently on my phone like everyone does . Those messages were from a while ago "
"Mmh" he hums as he doesn't pay much attention
"Jason ?"  I ask as he looks at me
"D-do you h-have a m-mental i-illness or s-something ? " I ask anxious as I play with my hands, I had to ask .
"Are you serious ? " he laughs as he shakes his head At me
"Your one to talk , we all know you have Amelia. But no I don't , ur unbelievable, Why would you even ask me that " he spits
Thats low life , you don't bring someone's mental health in it , I asked because I'm concerned , but he practically jokes about mine .
"N-no d-don't take it t-the wrong way . I'm just w-worried about you because one minute ur nice with me and then next your n-not , ur behaviour is sort of u-unpredictable "
"I'm not a freak , I don't have any mental illness " he laughs in my face
" it's okay If you did , I'll always support you , I have , it doesn't make me a freak "
"Yes it doesn't , ur pathetic , its you , u make me like this , get out "
I walk myself to the door and leave .

Once I get home I go in the shower , shave , exfoliate and wash my hair etc , I apply a face mask . Just to try make me feel better about myself , before sitting downstairs and watching a film with the family as we enjoy a takeaway and  another family night , I love nights like these .

"I'm going to the boys tomorrow, you coming ?" Harvey asks
"Yeah why not " I smile