Marrying my heartbreaker

Chapter 29

Dear Bliss,

Thank you. Thank you so much for everything. Thank you so much for the love. Thank you so much for choosing me inspite of my weirdness.

I am not fond of writing letters but since I received a letter from you yesterday. I decided to write you one. You told me how you met me... And surprisingly, I met you at the same day.

Crazy? Yes you are. Ayan agad pumasok sa utak ko nung nakita kong tinali mo sa ulo mo yung tali na binigay satin ng higher batch. Hindi ka pa nga nakuntento at nagtali ka rin sa magkabilang braso mo. Anong trip mo? And that caught my attention. Mas nakita pa kita ng ibigay sayo ang flag at pumwesto ka sa harap. Winagayway mo ito ng kumekembot. Huh, I immediately found out you're a dancer... You will be famous one day, with a face like yours? Many guys will chase you. And I don't want that.

Tinalikuran na kita at di nalang pinansin. I know I won't be able to get you. Ako pa? I'm weird and socially awkward. Sino magkakagusto sakin? But you surprised me by introducing yourself at a specific event. Smiling widely at me, telling me I'm a snob.

"Snobero!" Puta, nakaka irita pero tuwing ngingiti ka pagtinitingnan kita napapangiti nalang din ako. Snobero talaga ako pero dahil lang nahihiya ako sayo. Bakit hindi nalang si Cj kausapin mo? Eh siya naman may type sayo. Halata kasi.

"Hi, snobero." You texted me at halos mabato ko yung phone nung nabasa ko 'to kasi ikaw lang tumatawag sakin niyan. Nagpanggap pako na hindi ko alam. Sobrang napapansin na kita and suddenly you're everywhere. Sinong di matutuwa sayo? Babaeng nagdodota? Shit. Mas rumami nagkakandarapa sayo. Ano laban ko?

What surprised me even more? You confessed your feelings to me. Natutuwa ako pero a part of me was scared. Binibiro mo ba ako? And the latter part won. Alam kong nadisappoint ka kaya hindi mo na ako kinausap.

And as always, you surprised me one day by talking to me, telling me to try it out. You want us to try if we'll work out. You're really a woman full of surprises. I asked you "Why me?" and you answered me "What's not to love, bliss?" Oh BLISS. Such a cute endearment. Kahit pa ikaw lang gumagamit niyan satin. For me, you're also my bliss. Bliss? I asked you that too and you told me it's because I'm your complete happiness. Tangina. Nakakabading man pakinggan pero kinilig ako. Complete happiness? Shit. Hindi ko alam gagawin ko. But I fell right into the trap. Pumayag akong subukan natin. Kahit alam kong kung ano kahuhuntungan natin. Temporary happiness is better than permanent misery.

So, baby, hanggang dito nalang muna. I need to leave you. When you gave me the letter yesterday, I know it was our last meeting. I know that we both knew it was our unspoken goodbye. And I'm sorry. I'm so sorry, bliss.

I can't do this anymore because I know there is someone who can make you happier... And it's no other than my own brother. Si Cj. I know. I know he'll make you happy. Kahit tangina, masakit. I'll be willing to sacrifice my own happiness for yours.

I want you to be happy. Kaya be happy, okay? Be happy, please.

I love you, bliss. Saranghae.

If it's meant to be then we'll find our way back. Saranghaeyo, bliss.

Napasinghap ako. What? Hindi ko maintindihan.

Nakita niya ata ang pagtataka sa mata ko. "What's wrong?"

"I don't understand." Ngumuso pako.

He chuckled. "What I wrote in there is literally what I mean. Hindi lang ikaw ang nagkagusto ng araw na yun at hindi lang ikaw ang nasaktan nung nawala tayo."