Just A Single Chance

CHANCE 23

A SINGLE CHANCE
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Chapter 23: I Am Diseased

Bryan's POV

After staying at Amber's room for awhile, I decided to leave. But I brought the diary with me. It has 3 entries and for every entry, there is a quote. A quote that summarizes what is inside. Each entry is like a chapter of a story. It was long but interesting.

Now, nandito ako sa kwarto ko at hawak hawak ko ang diary niya. I was sitting on the veranda thinking if I would flip the page to number 2. I only read the quote on the first entry.

~Behind my one smile, are thousands of unspoken words I am trying to hide ~

After deciding, I flipped the page to the next one.

I'm Different

That was the title written in a calligraphy. It was pretty but was sad at the same time. I stared at it and decided to go on.

I'm Amber. I'm only 10 years old but I'm turning 11 next week. I am studying in a private school and Mom and Dad doesn't always come home. Nalulungkot ako palagi kapag wala sila sa bahay. Mga katulong lang at yung driver ang kasama ko sa malaking bahay namin. Masaya ako sa bahay, pero sa school, hindi ko alam.
Hindi ko alam kung bakit but my classmates always bully me. Monster daw ako. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nila nasabi yun pero, I just smile to them whenever they say it to me. Pero parang nagagalit pa sila saakin kapag nginitian ko sila. I shouldn't smile at them daw dahil baka maging monster din sila. I did not know what they were talking about not until I was 11.
Pumunta kami nina Mommy sa market para bumili ng birthday supplies ko. We were in the middle of picking the ingredients we need when I lost sight of Mom. I cried in the middle of the crowd but no one dared to ask or help me. I was so scared.

I can't take it anymore. I closed the diary shut and stood up while holding my forehead. I'm getting a headache just by reading the first entry.

What kind of person would ignore a child in such a problem? I'm in furry right now because of those people. I stared at the mirror in front of me at hinilamos ko ang aking mukha. I am exhausted from all the activity today. I'll go to sleep first and read the rest of the entry in the middle of the night or tomorrow when I have time. Anong oras na ba?

Tumingin ako sa wall clock sa taas ng malaking higaan ko at nakitang 7 pa lang ng gabi. If I finish the first entry, it would not take me until 10, right? Should I finish reading it then?

Bumuntong hininga ako at umupo sa edge ng kama ko. I'll finish the first entry. I have to.

Binuksan ko yung diary at hinanap kung saan na page ako huminto. When I found the familiar words, I stopped there and soothed myself.

Ilang oras pa akong nandoon sa gitna ng market nang may lumapit sa akin na dalawang lalaki. They were big and had strong muscles. Tumingin ako noon sakanila at ngumiti sila sa akin. "Bata nawawala ka ba? Halika, tutulungan ka namin na hanapin ang Mama mo. Halika na" sabi nila saakin. I was hesitant pero tinanggap ko na rin yung tulong nila. Hawak ng isang lalaki ang kamay ko at naglalakad kami sa lugar kung saan paunti-unti na ang tao na pumupunta doon. "Mister, tama po ba ang daan na pinupuntahan natin? Nandito po ba ang Mommy ko?" tanong ko at ngumiti sila pero hindi gaya noon nakakatakot na ang mga ngiti nila. "Mister....." tanong ko at ngumisi na siya sa pagkakataon na yon. "Bata, huwag kang maingay ha? May pupuntahan tayo, maganda doon.." sabi niya at nagtaka ako. "Teka po, hahanapin natin si Mommy diba?" tanong ko at ngumiti siya. "Nandoon ang Mommy mo. Huwag kang mag-alala." sabi niya at tumango naman ako. Sumakay kami sa kotse at pumunta sa malayong lugar. Malayo sa market. Isang abandoned building ang pinuntahan namin. "Natatakot po ako" sabi ko sakanila pero tumawa lang sila. "Dapat lang na matakot ka." sabi ni Mister at hinila ako papasok. Umiiyak ako habang tinatali nila ako sa upuan. Wala akong magawa...........

What the heck is this? I closed my eyes shut and took a deep breath. My hands were trembling after reading over half of the first entry. As much as I don't want to read it, I have to. I looked at it and continued reading it.

I was so scared that day to the point that I passed out. My heart was weak ever since I was born at doon sa araw na yun, my heart is on the verge of giving up. Nobody told me what happened after I passed out. Basta ang sinabi lang sa akin ni Mommy, I was okay na daw. I asked Manang kung ano ba talaga nangyari and thankfully she told me. Sabi niya pinahanap daw ako ni Mommy sa mga pulis dahil may text message daw na nareceive si Mommy na kinidnap ako. Luckily, they found me pero walang malay na daw ako. Sinugod daw ako sa hospital and doctors were very sad to deliver the news to my parents. "Amber needs a heart transplant". Yun daw ang sinabi ng doctor kina Mommy. My parents disagreed kasi 50/50 daw yung surgery dahil hindi nila alam kung makakayanan ng maliit kong pangangatawan ang surgery. The doctors then realized na baka mapahamak pa ako pagnagkaroon ako ng surgery. I also had a massive blood loss from the wounds I got. I was left comatosed for a year. It was a miracle that I woke up after that . And that was when I got locked up inside the house by my parents to protect me. I was home schooled. No friends, no classmates, no enemies, no anything. I have nothing but my teacher. Mas mabuti na din to kasi paglumabas ako baka mas mapahamak pa ako. And whenever I get scared, surprised or anything that can make my heart rate go up, I'm putting myself in danger.  And I'm diseased.

I closed the diary and laid my back on my bed. I can never imagine seeing Amber in that state. What kind of human can do that thing to a child?! I'm getting angry because of this. I closed my eyes and fell asleep eventually.