We arrived at the hotel room and Billie made sure I was comfortable before she and fin headed out the door.
she explained her and Fin would only be in a room down the hall if I needed them. I buried my head on the pillow a welcomed soft warmth taking over my body as I slowly fell asleep.
Sadly it didn't last long before the blood curdling nightmares began invading my mind, I didn't have them every night but being drunk definitely made them worse.
I woke as a fist came towards my face. I jolted awake upright, struggling to breathe and tears nearly escaping.
"Are you ok?!" Billie nearly yelled, her words where laced with panic. I jumped as she spoke, I didn't even know she was here.
"Fuck." I gasped.
"Sorry I heard you scream and wanted to check you where ok." She said, her eyebrows creasing together and her mouth frowning.Taking a seat on my bed. I got out of the bed and began to pace back and forth, another thing I did when stressed. I noticed Billie never took her eyes off me, following my every step like i may just disappear if she was to blink.
I walked over to my bag and pulled out a pre rolled joint and lit it, taking into the fumes.
"Dude you can't smoke we will get in trouble." Billie stormed over to me and grabbed the joint from me putting it out.
"Is this weed?" She said, shocked.
"Vices.."I said avoiding eye contact. Suddenly just feeling overwhelmed and defeatedI began to cry I slid down the wall and pulled my knees to my chin as I gave up trying to hold the tears in. At this stage I was nearly sobbing. i hated crying in front of people, i felt like i was weak, easy prey. it was 50 times worse crying in front of billie
Billie sighed before making her way over to me and sitting down next to me.
"Come here." She said putting her arm around me. I buried my face into her chest.
"It's ok." She sighed.-
Billies POV
I woke in bed with lily. Something about it made my heart swell, although i don't remember making the choice. Just being next to her was enough to put me in a good mood. I liked knowing she was safe and protected.As I slowly woke up out of my day dream I pulled out my phone and checked social media to see what was going on. i know people say you shouldn't use your phone within the first few hours of waking up..but let's be realistic.. i need to know if there are zombies running around or not.
Shit.. I silently said as I saw a post with photos of what happened last night. This wasn't good.. my agent would flip. "Fuck." I said as I threw the phone to the end of the bed suddenly panicking.
Lily stirred. She turned to me, giving me a confused face.
"Good morning." I laughed trying to play off my concern over the post.
"Is everything ok?" She returned, not dropping the confused look.
"Yeah, yeah it's all good I just need to speak to fin about something i forgot to ask him about, that's all" I said as I climbed out of bed and quickly walked to the door. She didn't need anything more to worry about so I kept this too myself.
"Billie.." lily started. I slowly turned around to face her
"Yeah?"
"Thank you for staying with me last night." She said, her cheeks turning red.
"Anytime." I smiled before leaving the room.
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Lily's POV
I don't know what shocked me more, the fact billie stayed or the fact she seems happy about it. My heart was like a magnet and it was pulling me closer to hers.After my little thoughts I got out of bed and began to get dressed just throwing on some jeans and a oversized hoodie and putting my hair in a bun. this was a day to day look for me I wasn't big on fashion and preferred to keep my body hidden, throwing on some jeans and a hoodie made it easy.
I sat down on my bed and opened my phone. I opened Facebook and my eyes went wide at what I saw
"Pop star billie eilish into fighting, are drugs next?"
The photo showed was of billie pushing Adam away whilst I was laying on the floor and another of fin between the two of them.This isn't good. Billie can't have a bad reputation..
I left my room in a hurry to go find her, once at her door I knocked and waiting for her to let me in.
Billie opened the door and I hardly gave her a chance to realise it was me before I started apologising
"I'm so sorry, I didn't mean for this to happen, I'm so sorry, please don't hate me i didnt mean for this to happen," I blabbered
"It's not your fault." She said but I could see she was angry.
"It is I shouldn't have got you involved I'm sorry"
"Lily. It's not your fault it's Adams. It's his fault you've done nothing." She said in a serious and stern tone.She wasn't wrong. If Adam wasn't as abusive as he was then maybe things would just be ok. I just wanted to fix the situation but I didn't know how
Me and billie had become friends I didn't want to lose her, i couldn't handle losing her.
"I feel awful." I said, looking at the floor
"Please don't" Billie said taking my hand in hers. I looked up at her, shyly smiling, my cheeks a shade of pink.Every time she touched me it sent electricity down my veins
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We ordered room service and ate breakfast. Well I drank breakfast in the form of coffee and Billie and fin ate some toast."You not going to eat lily?" Fin said
"Um im not really hungry.." I said avoiding eye contact. I noticed Billie give me a sad smile.Before long we left the hotel, fin had to go out and do work stuff but I decided to go home with Billie. i needed to go home to see jake but i didn't want to be near adam and i didnt want to leave billie
I sat on her bed, she was messing with music and lyrics."It's beautiful." I said When she was finished
"Your beautiful" she responded I looked away at my feet unsure how to respond, I was so use to Adam telling me I was worthless this came as a shock to me."Lily I mean it. Inside and out your stunning." She said sitting up so she was closer to me.
She hesitated but slowly cupped my face with her hand, gently stroking my cheek with her thumb. She moved closer and our lips connected. The kiss was slow but passionate.
After a few seconds she pulled away my body shaking slightly so I laid back down. "I think I'm falling for you." She nearly whispered. I bit my lip and smiled to myself.
I slowly crawled on top of her so I was leaning over her and reconnected our lips. When I pulled away I simply said "same."
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Emotions // Billie Eilish - (on hold)
FanficThe world can throw a lot of emotions at you. When billie goes to a school to sing but ends up seeing a girl bullied she starts to feel something new. TRIGGER WARNING: this book contains chapters about self harm, depression, anxiety, trauma, abuse a...