The world can throw a lot of emotions at you. When billie goes to a school to sing but ends up seeing a girl bullied she starts to feel something new.
TRIGGER WARNING: this book contains chapters about self harm, depression, anxiety, trauma, abuse a...
As our lips connected the 3rd time, things began to get deep. Billie had one hand on my hip playing with the band of my jeans and the other in my hair. She quickly flipped us so she was on top.
She took her hand from my hair and slowly slid it under my shirt. She moved her lips from mine and began to suck and kiss my neck. I felt her hand slide inside my jeans, teasing me. I scratched her back as I let out a breath I didn't even know I was holding in.
"Fuck.." I sighed As my veins filled with the electric current I got whenever she touched me. I felt Billie smile into my neck as she moved to kiss my stomach and chest.
Suddenly there was a knock at the door. Both me and billie jumped. We had gotten so carried away we didn't realise fin had returned. He casually walked in. And I turned to the wall so he wouldn't see me blushing.
BILLIES PoV.
Fin walked in and I wondered if he even knew what he had just interrupted. I glanced at lily who was a shade of red.
I tried to catch my breath as I spoke "can I help you?" Trying not to laugh. "I need to talk to you. Now." Fin said, sounding serious and annoyed. "Ok about what?" I hesitated "Just meet me in the kitchen.. alone." He said glancing at lily who was still out of breath.
He shut the door and walked out, "Ugh, I was having fun." I moaned as I stood up. "Stay here.. I'll be back." I winked at lily
Confused and somewhat annoyed that my fun had been Interrupted I walked into the kitchen. Fin was sat with his arms crossed at the table where he ate breakfast every day. "What's so important?" I said taking a seat opposite fin. "The label won't realise come out and play because of the drama." He said, totally serious. "What the fuck??!! Why?!" "I warned you this would happen bil." "Don't start this shit with me.. not now." "Look billie what if you and I just went by ourselves? We do all the producing anyway you have a decent following let's forget the label." I heisted before answering. This could ether go really right or really wrong.. "Are you sure that's a good idea?" "Don't know till we try."
Me and fin agreed in 2 weeks we'd realise CO&P ourselves.. I was nervous but excited.
I walked back to my room this time locking the door after I entered. I looked at lily and said "so where did we stop?" As I rejoined her on my bed. - LILYS POV A few hours later I was back home, thankfully adam was out, something about gaming at a friends house. i didn't care to be honest i was just happy he wasn't here. I noticed I had a message from billie.
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It read 'I miss you. come back.' Which a photo attached I quickly replied 'stop💦' As my skin tingled 'When can I see you again?' 'I mean.. i have school but I'm free tomorrow after that?' 'See you then'
I smiled to myself feeling like an excited kid at Christmas as I set my phone down on the side
The rest of the day dragged I was excited to see billie which meant the hours in between almost felt like torture. 1 hour felt like 6 and my day never seemed to end, i tried my best to keep busy so the hours would pass faster but somehow my brain always seemed to wonder back to billie.
the way she smiled, the way she laughed, the way she stuttered when she was nervous. i was not looking forward to school tomorrow, i never did but now the hours which already dragged would feel even longer
BILLIES POV.
I sat on my bed singing 'And I know it makes you nervous But I promise you, it's worth it To show 'em everything you kept inside Don't hide, don't hide Too shy to say, but I hope you stay Don't hide away....Come out and play'
As I finished there was a knock at the door. "Yeah!" I yelled. As fin slowly walked in and sat on my bed. I put down the guitar and sat upright. "Ok so I've been thinking.." he started. "Maybe we should hold a tour? You've got enough followers and we'll just do the surrounding states like 2 and a half weeks maybe 7 or 10 shows?" He continues "When do we leave?" I beamed at him. "1 week." He smiled. "Can lily come?" I said now feeling nervous that he may say no. "I don't know billie. Are you sure that's a good idea?" "I'll keep her hidden please. She's like my best friend.." I begged. "Ok but be careful.."
i knew fin was trying to protect me so i couldn't be mad at him but lily and i we got on so well i just wanted to spend all my time with her. every time she left i felt so sad and empty, a piece of me left when she went home every time
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I arrived at Lily's house smiling ear to ear so excited to tell her the good news. She slowly opened the door it looked like she'd only just woken up, maybe shed taken a nap or wasn't feeling well. her hair was everywhere and her eyes were puffy. I hugged her making her jump and kissed her cheek "Hello." I beamed. "...hi... why are you so happy?" She said squinting at me confusion all over her face she stepped aside allowing me into the house. she brushed her hand threw her hair. "Come on." I said taking her hand and leading her into her own room as i skipped down the corridor so I could talk to her without her brother or Adam hearing. I made her sit down on the bed as I leaned over her to steal a kiss before I told her my good news. I sat on the floor in front of her so she Was looking down at me and rested my hands on her legs, i couldn't stop smiling at her.
"So I'm going on tour." I said. Her face dropped. "Your leaving?" She said tears building in her eyes. "Well.. that's the thing I want you to come with me. It's 2 and a half weeks" I said biting my lip. "Wait What? Are you sure? what about jake, adam.. school??" "Yes. you can facetime jake and who cares about school my mum does home schooling" I said as I moved closer to her, now sitting next to her on the bed. "Come with me. Please. I don't want to be away from you." I continued "Ok I'll come you don't need to beg." She laughed as she leaned into my side.
i stood up towering over her as i leant in to kiss her. she laid down taking me with her. i could hardly kiss her due to how much i was smiling.
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Lilys POV
I was shocked, but very excited. i was scared adam wouldn't like it but i was also considering not telling him. id just say i was going on holiday to visit family?
I had gone from being an everyday girl studying at school in an abusive relationship to going on tour with billie eilish.
Who says dreams don't happen? I had gone from being told I was worthless to being told daily how important I am. I have gone from crying sad tears nightly to laughing till I cry happy tears, id gone from being beaten to told how stunning i was..
In 7 days I would be on tour with billie eilish. Oh my god.
