Emotions // Billie Eilish - (on hold)

Chapter Twelve

Billies PoV
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I walked out on stage and began to sing. Singing and writing where my favourite ways to pass time, always had been.

I was on my 4th song, come out and play when I realised something was going on. The fans had loved it so far they'd been cheering and dancing and singing along something was different now..

I looked down using my hand to block out the light that was blinding my view, there was a huddle in the front and everyone was panicking. Nobody was paying attention to me, i'm unsure they even realised id stopped singing and missed my line

"Wait, Wait Wait.." I said to fin.

"What's going on here?" I said hoping someone could enlighten me as to what had happened.

The room filled with people saying someone had passed out and I stood in shock for a second. Fin was by my side in seconds.

He jumped off stage into the crowd, he scooped up a girl and began walking away with her.

it took me a few seconds but when I realised my heart began to race and my eyes began to Cry. The girl was lily.

I dropped the mic and ran after them.

When I got outback they had her laying on the floor her legs on a chair. I marched over there.

"What is going on?!" I nearly screamed
"Give her space." Someone yelled up at me.

"excuse me? i want to know what the fuck is wrong with her now!!" i nearly screamed, i was so blinded by panic i couldn't care less about manners

Fin got up from by Lily's side and guided me away.

"They don't know what's happened they can't get her to come round an ambulance is coming as quick as they can." He said.

I began to cry uncontrollably and my legs gave way. Fin sat on the floor with me and hugged me as my tears stained his shirt.
"Fuck." I yelled as I sobbed.

Before long an ambulance came and began to take vitals and plug all sorts of needles and cords into her, within minutes she was rushed out to the ambulance and taken to hospital, taken from me, i felt like my heart went with her. i was left alone in the corridor staring at the doors.

Me and fin rode in his car to the hospital. I decided to post on Instagram stories
'I'm sorry to leave you all like that. Someone I love has become very sick, I'm so so sorry but I have to be with them right now. Love you💖'

I don't get what happened, until I think about it..until i play the days back in my head.. we've been on tour nearly 3 days.. I haven't seen lily eat once..

"Shit... " I sat to myself as the realisation sets In
"..what?!.." Fin says.
"Lily hasn't eaten in 3 days. She hasn't eaten since we left for tour.. that's why she passed out.."
"You need to tell them that at the hospital bil.. she needs help. she may have an eating disorder"

I know it's true but I can't bare to think about it. i push the thought out my mind and ignore it. which isn't healthy but i also can't cope with the thought rattling around in my head

Once at the hospital we sit in a waiting room, time ticks slowly there are kids crying, stressed adults and doctors who look like they haven't slept in days.

It's about 4 hours before we can finally see her.

I walk in and she's awake, but she looks dead. Her face is whiter then the bed sheets, she has black circles under her eyes, her lips are dry, blue and her skin is patchy.

"Lily.." I start but I just cry. She weakly smiles at me as I wrap my arms around her
"I'm sorry" she says, her voice shakes, like it's taking all her energy to speak to me.
"No baby. You have nothing to be sorry about."
"I ruined your show." She says.

A single tear escaping her eyes. I use my thumb to wipe it away.

"No! Of course you didn't... But.."I say. Hesitating at the end. "We have to get you help.." I say, looking at the ground. She violently shakes her head

"no! They'll lock me away!" She says beginning to panic, i notice a few heads turn towards us.
"Ok ok..Please.. At least let me and fin try to help you." I say placing my hands on her shoulders.
Utterly defeated she just says "ok."

Am I certain we can help lily? No.. will I try my hardest? Yes. Of course.