Loved // j.g

Fucked Over

Jack's POV ((from last night))
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I quickly ran out of the restaurant searching my pockets for my key. I can't believe what I just witnessed. I can't believe a girl I loved more than my life just played me over.

I should've never let her in. I should've never let her take my heart and surrender my thoughts , my body , my mind.

I got in my car and i didn't care what speed i was driving at i just wanted to go home and smoke ; basically do anything to forget tonight.

I used to get high all the time but since hanna came into my life I stopped because I knew she doesn't like that. I used to get drunk every weekend but I stopped because I was afraid if I was drunk and I had to spend my nights with hanna I wouldn't be able to stop myself and maybe hurt her , take advantage of her when I was drunk.

Now I didn't care because the only reason hanna and I never did it is because she needed time? Oh no , it's because she was saving herself for her "actual" boyfriend.

I was now sitting in my bedroom with a little plastic bag in my hand and a lighter . Should I smoke weed? Maybe a blunt or two will help me forget? Or maybe cigarets make you feel good isn't that why everyone smokes?

Instead I just got up from my bed and went downstairs to get a drink. I didn't bother going to a club because I knew I wouldn't be able to drive home.

I started drinking. I drank and drank until I even forgot where I was and what I was doing.

I started breaking stuff around me , kicking the wall beside me , making my fists bleed more but I didn't care. I've never felt like this before. Everything we had was it just a lie? If what we had was real how was hanna still with jake?

you know what?

Fuck hanna.

Fuck her beautiful face.

Fuck her cute giggles.

Fuck her beautiful scars that made her no less perfect.

I just got fucked over.

Me? Fuckin Jack Gilinsky got fucked over?

"I FINALLY LET SOMEONE IN ON MY LIFE AND THIS IS WHAT I GET IN RETURN" I yell , talking to no one in particular.

I was just angry I had to let go of my anger.

I finally made it upstairs to my room and just fell asleep right away , I passed out I don't even remember doing anything.

Hanna's POV ((sunday morning basically where the last chapter ended))

Jack wouldn't even look at me how am I suppose to work this out?

"jack" I say quietly "can I come in?" I ask nervously biting on my lip. He doesn't say anything still looking away from my face he just moves to the side and let's me in.

"jack please look at me at least we need to talk I'm sorry" I say touching his arm but he snatched it away from me .

"Don't fuckin touch me hanna steven" he said quietly but in a really harsh tone looking me straight in the eyes. He's never talked to me like this before infact he's never called me by my full name before. This hurt.

"jack listen let me explain I wasn't able to sleep last night all i could think about was yo-" i start but he cuts me off .

"WHY DO YOU ALWAYS MAKE IT SO HARD FOR ME? MAKE ME LOOK LIKE THE BAD PERSON? WHY DO YOU ACT LIKE YOU ARE THE ONLY ONE HURT IN THIS SITUATION? REMEMBER IT WASNT ME WHO WAS STILL DATING HIS "EX" AND DATING YOU MAKING YOU FEEL LIKE YOU ARE THE FUCKIN ONLY ONE. IT WAS YOU. IT WAS YOU WHO FUCKED ME OVER. YOU KNEW HOW MUCH I FUCKIN LOVED YOU AND HOW MUCH I FUCKIN CHANGED FOR YOU SO I COULD MAKE YOU HAPPY MAKE YOU FORGET EVERYTHING ABOUT THAT NIGHT AND THIS IS WHAT YOU DO TO ME?" He yells. I see a few tears stream down his face but he immediately turned away so I couldn't see him broken, see him cry but his expression was serious. He said all those words and they didn't hurt me because it was all true. I felt my eyes pool up.