Loved // j.g

New girl

(imagine Jake as tanner zagarino, the guy up there ^^)
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Hanna's POV
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I was in a parking lot , it was raining heavily , I was looking for someone but not sure exactly who , my whole body was shaking and shivery , my make up was running down my face , the water soaking my clothes and I realized a shadow following me ; I started running , running fast , losing breath , my heart pounding in my chest , I tripped and fell on the wet pavement , as pain rushed through my spine causing me to scream and cry out in pain , I looked up to see a guy from that night , the night I almost got rapped , standing with jack , jack was under his control and a gun pointed at Jack's head he pulled the trigger as jack tried to escape himself , I shut closed my eyes tightly as I screamed as loud as I could "JAAACCCCKKKKKKKKKKK" and my eyes popped open.
My whole body was shaking , I couldn't find air to breath , my whole body was sweating and spinning when I realized someone was holding onto me tightly and whispering something in my ear "hanna , baby girl im right here , shhhh , it's okay , I'm fine , you're fine shh" jack kept repeating over and over again and I looked up to see jack laying next to me.
Then it hit me.
It was a dream.
Jack was alive , I was alive ; he's with me , I'm safe , he's safe.
I tightly hugged Jack's body as if I didn't want to loose him and buried my face into his bare chest as tears covered his chest but I didn't care I wanted him as close to me as possible.
I was slowing coming back to normal , my heart came back to a normal pace and I ran out of tears after about 10 minutes of laying in the same position , I noticed the sound of the rain hitting against the window. It was actually raining.
"did you have a bad dream , it's okay baby girl Im here with you , you are with me" jack said against my hair because his face was buried in my hair.
"jack ... you ... you are alright I .. I thought---- I lost you im so fuck-" I begin but he shut me off "No you will never lose me baby girl I'll always be here with you ... only you ... always" he said a bit loudly.
Now I was totally calm so I took my face away from his chest and cleaned away my tears from his bare chest "Uhh sorry" I said quietly "Shh it's totally fine baby girl I don't mind" he said whipping my face with his palms.
Now we were quietly laying down , it was still dark outside , the thunder was loud and I was really scared of lightening and thunder so I snuggled closer to jack and rested my head in the pit of his shoulders and held onto his torso tightly.
"why are you scared of lightening hanna" he asked.
"it's like a sign of anger , it's like God is taking his anger out on people who do wrong in this world" I said "that's what my mom always used to tell me , but I .. I like rain infact I love rain because the rain washes away all the bad memories and sorrow , it takes away the tears and gives you another chance to fix your feelings and your life" i said drawing circles on his torso with my finger tips as he played with my hair.
"I also love rain , the sound of raindrops is so peaceful and calming it's like no worries exist in this world . Everything is perfect and in its place" he said.
"but you know what I like more? I like you , I like your presence , I like your existence , I like you. I love you , I love everything about you , you make my life full of colors it sounds cheesy as fuck but it's true , sorry baby girl im not good at expression my feelings but I try I mean look at yo-" he said but I cut him off by crashing my lips onto his , he immediately kissed me back , the kiss was slow and passionate and I could feel him smile against my lips.
"I love you" I whispered inbetween kisses "thank you for everything" I said as I bit playfully on his lower lip.
"Get some sleep baby girl" he said and kissed my forehead.
I fell asleep in the arms of the person I love the most , all I could hear was the sound of the raindrops and the heartbeat of Jack's heart.
I woke up to the sound of my alarm going off. It took a lot of effort to open my eyes and press "snooze" on my phone and I took a glance at the time it read "7:58am" oh fuck today was Monday and I didn't wanted to miss school.
I tried to get out of bed but Jack's arms were holding me down , they were tight around my waist and his head was buried in my hair.
I didn't wanted to interrupt his sleep but he had to get up for school anyway so I slowly tried to take his hands off me "Jack baby wake up" I called out petting his hair "mhmm" he muttered.
"okay at least let me go" i protested trying to leave the bed "not so soon baby girl" he said in his sexy raspy morning voice that got me so weak.
"come on gilinsky we're gonna be late" i said and took his hands off me.
"You always do this jasmin---" he said with his eyes slightly open and he stopped himself as the last word left his mouth.
Wait .....
what the fuck?
did he just mistaken me for another fuckin girl?
I could feel my heart break into a million pieces oh my god.
I quickly snatched myself away from him , getting up from the bed , I was just wearing one of his t shirts and my panties and now I kind of felt exposed and betrayed.
"Hanna listen to me" he said quickly getting off the bed .
"Who the fuck is jasmine, Jack?" I asked darkly as I walked to the washroom and quickly wore my dress back on and walking towards the door.
"Hanna I didn't mean to call you jasmine...." He said and rolled his eyes.
What the fuck ? Why was he acting so fuckin weird like I did something wrong and this wasn't a big deal.
"are you fuckin kidding me jack, I'm fuckin going don't come after me , fuck you" I said loudly and ran down the stairs and I took one last glance at Jack he just stood there with an annoyed expression on his face and shrugged.
He didn't even try to explain.
He didn't even try to fuckin stop me.
I was fuckin leaving me but he didn't even bother stopping.
I didn't wanted to leave I wanted him to tell me it's a misunderstanding and that he loves me and only me.
I quickly walked out of his house as tears rolled down my cheeks.
I quickly got to my front door and blake opened the door I just walked past him and ran up to my room.
"HANNA WHAT HAPPENED" I heard blake yell after me "I DONT WANNA TALK RN" I yelled back.
Oh my god did me and Jack just fuckin break up?
My head was hurting and I couldn't stop the tears from coming. I needed to be stronger. I didn't even know his side of the story I was overreacting but Jack didn't even try to explain.
I can't let this ruin my day. I can't miss school I thought to myself as I quickly walked to my closet took out a pair of yoga pants and a fresh cami and a tna hoodie with some moccasins.
I quickly got dressed and checked my phone , I texted sammy to pick me up and he said he'll be here in 5 , I put my hair in a bun and wore some concealer , some mascara and some pink lipstick. I didn't wanted to look weak infront of Jack. I wanted to look normal. I can't show him how weak I am and how much he fuckin means to me if he's just gonna fuck me over like this.
I walked downstairs towards the kitchen popping a bagel in the toaster "hanna you okay did Jack do something" blake called out from the hallway "no we're .... kinda not talking rightnow , im not ready to talk about it but he didn't hurt me ... well physically didn't" i explained and blake just nodded in agreement. I was happy he didn't argue back I wasn't ready to explain.
I quickly ate my bagel and took a water bottle on my way out. I walked out to see Jack's jeep wasnt in his driveway anymore.
I walked up to Sammy's house and his mom opened the door "hi miss wilkinson , where's sammy" I said smiling politely.
"He's just coming sweetie you can come in if you want" she said "it's okay I'll wait here" i said and after about 2 minutes sammy came out wearing a pair of sweats and a t shirt with his bag hanging from his shoulder.
"Hanna you okay" he asked as we walked towards his car "yeah it's nothing lets go before we get late" I said as we got in his car.
The car ride to school was silent and sammy broke the silent "what did he do now?" He asked "he fuckin mistakened me for another girl" I said as I tried to sound normal and hold my tears back holy fuck im such a emotional wreck.
"ehh ... who's name did he say?" He asked awkwardly "some chick named jasmine" i said through grinning teeth.
I watched him carefully trying to read his expression and it didn't change at all it was as neutral as possible but how was that even possible sammy and Jack are childhood friends there's no way he doesn't know who jasmine is "oh" was all sammy said and kept his focus on the road.
We finally reached school and parked the car , it wasn't cold outside at all it was just kinda chilly and wet from last night's rain and thunder.
I was glad I didn't have the morning classes with Jack but instead I had first period with ashley and second with Jake and the last 2 with Jack.
I went to my locker and Jack wasn't in sight usually we just share a locker I put the thought of Jack away from my mind and got my stuff and walked towards my class.
I went and sat with ashley as the teacher kept going on about whatever the fuck she was talking about I just sat there doodling on the sheet infront of me "what's wrong Hans" ashley asked with concern in her tone.
I explained her the whole story all also told her how I think I overreacted but it's not like Jack made the effort to talk to me so why should I?
I don't know how I survived the first period without crying but I did and I was proud.
I said my goodbye to ashley and walked to my next class , in this class I sit behind Jake and i didn't mind.
I quickly walked to my seat which was at the end of the class and Jake was already sitting in his chair but I avoided contact with him and sat on my chair. Jake turned around in his seat "Hi , what's up with the ignoring" he asked "What no ... I wasn't ignoring .. you" I stuttered. "Hanna I know you , I know when you're lying to me" he said staring into my eyes with concern.
Oh fuck.
"It's nothing big im just not having the best Monday morning , how usual" i said shrugging my shoulders.
"Jake and Hanna it seems like what you're discussing is more important than my lesson , how about you share it with the class or leave the class rightnow" the teacher yelled and Jake turned back around and I looked up at the teacher.
Great.
I didn't even wanna say sorry . I got up from my seat , reached for jake's arm and walked out of the classroom.
"Hanna but" Jake said as we walked out of the classroom.
"who fuckin cares it was boring anyways" I said walking down the hall .
"okay fine lets go outside in the field" he said opening the door for me , I agreed.
We were now walking outside side by side "so what's up with that Rachel girl?" I asked curiously "Uhh nothing really she's just a friend .. well so far" he said .
I was looking at the ground this whole time , me and Jake were walking at the same pace , taking steps at the same time.
"holyshit remember when we got kicked out of math for throwing paper balls at each other and then the principal called us down but we didn't go and went out to get food instead" he said with excitement.
"Oh my god yeah that was such a good day , I felt like a badass" I said as I started laughing.
I didn't even know when and how I tripped over a rock and fell straight to the pavement.
"OUCHHHHH" I yelled as my body hit the ground.
"Hanna oh my god" Jake said getting down on the floor beside me "are you okay" he asked "I don't think so ..." I managed to say. He started touching my legs and made his way up to my knees and I felt a wet spot as I realized my knee was bleeding. I think he realized that too because he started rolling up my yoga pants and my face dropped when I looked at my bruise.
"Let's get you to the hospital" he said "but I can't walk" i protested.
"you don't have too" he smiled as he picked me up bridal style from the ground like I weigh nothing, he was now walking towards his car and I saw Jack walk out of the door towards the parking lot.
Oh fuck no.
He's gonna think I'm getting it on with Jake but than I noticed him looking at my knee instead of my face and I felt better because at least he knows what's going on , the blood kept dripping as Jake was walking.
Jack had a really dark serious look on his face but also a hint of worry.
I wanted Jack to hold me , Jack was always the one to me feel happy , to make sure i was okay and now I'm just here ; I thought to myself and tried to keep my tears in.
Jake placed me on the car seat and bought out paper towels and started cleaning up my wound I tried to keep the cries in because I didn't wanted to embarrass myself but it did hurt like a bitch.
"Let's get you to the hospital" Jake said "no I can't miss class just bandage my knee please Jake" I begged he nodded in response and bandaged my knee.
I got up from the seat carefully and put some weight on it , gladly it didn't hurt that much to walk unless I bent my knee I just bent my knee to see how much it hurts "ouchhh" i said quietly, that was painful.
"Can you come with me I have to goto my locker and change my pants" i said shrugging onto jake's shoulder "sure thing Hans" he said and locked his arm with mine and I put most of my weight on his shoulder because I couldn't really walk without lumping.
We were about to enter the school through the door as my eyes landed on Jack's figure. He was sitting in his jeep this whole time across from jake's car watching us. But he was moving his lips and he had his phone up to his ear. Wait what the fuck was he doing ; his stare was cold but there was a smile playing on the edge of his mouth.
"Jake gimme a second" I said and carefully walked towards his jeep. I wanted to ask him what the fuck he was doing. As I walked closer to his jeep I wish I never did because I could now hear him talk.
"Jasmine I miss you so much too" he said never breaking the eye contact with me as I walked towards the car "can't wait to see you boo" he said and my heart dropped it felt like someone just stabbed my heart.
I don't think Jack noticed that I would actually hear him talk from all the way far. I didn't even bother going up to him , I was gonna solve this for us but now I didn't even want to see his face anymore.
Fuck him.
I walked back to Jake and held onto his arm and walked inside the school.
I saw ashley at lunch but she was going out with sammy so I didn't want to ruin their plan so I decided to stay with Jake and he didn't mind.
I was now wearing a pair of sweatpants , good thing I had them in my locker.
I was standing by one of the windows in the cafeteria while Jake was in the lunch line buying us both lunch.
He came back with 2 slices of pizza and Gatorade , I'm surprised he still remembers the blue one is my favorite and how I love pepperoni pizza. I found that interesting.
"Here you go lovely" he said smiling and passing me my food "thank you and sorry I made you stand , I can't exactly sit comfortably with this" i said pointing at my leg. "Don't worry it's all good" he said as he took a huge bite of his slice.
We both ate while we talked about the most random stuff and I was actually enjoying my time with Jake .
Lunch ended and we said our goodbyes and this was the worst part , I have the whole afternoon with Jack I don't know how I'm suppose to ignore him oh my god this is gonna be awful I just wanna go home.
I walked into class and Jack was already sitting in his seat which is next to mine great.
I carefully walked in and pulled my chair out and sat there resting my leg straight out , taking out my binder and a pen. Jack was sitting next to me I could smell his cologne and I could also see him look at me , from the corner of my eye , he had his work infront of him and his phone in the other hand. He was probably texting jasmine ha.
I bit on my lip hardly to stop the tears from coming and formed my hand into a fist digging my nails deep into my palm.
"Hanna guess what" Jack said and I looked up to see his expression plain and careless not the usual Jack ; he didn't even wait for me to answer "you know jasmine .. well wait you don't know her , my bad , she's coming back to our school" he said smiley widely .
I couldn't believe what he just said why was he acting so weird and being an asshole. Why is he acting like I'm nothing to him and nothing happened between us. I felt like crying but I can't cry infront of Jack , no.
"Jack .. why are you" I started "why am I what" he said. I can't believe what he's saying rightnow. Oh my god why was he even talking to me like nothing happened.
"I can't believe you" I said and got up from my seat gathering my stuff and telling the teacher I had a bad stomachache and I'm signing out and I rushed out of the classroom. I ran out of the school even though I could barely walk with my knee but physical pain was way better than the pain Jack caused me. I felt betrayed. I felt horrible. What was all this about? Who was jasmine? Why is Jack acting like this? Are me and Jack nothing now but classmates? Why was my life falling apart?
I ran out to the felid and behind the bleachers where no one comes. That was mine and Jack's get away spot. We always used to skip and spend time there.
I just sat on the bench like spot and threw my head in my lap and cried and cried. I don't even know how long I was crying for and by now I couldn't catch my breath my whole body was spinning and I was feeling nauseous and cold. I felt like I was dying. Until I heard a familiar voice.
"Hanna" Jack said and I looked up to see Jack standing at my foot "what the fuck do you want" I yelled in between cries. "Jeez nothing you forgot your text book in class and the teacher told me to find you and give it to you chill" he said rolling his eyes.
Oh my god. Stupid me. I actually thought Jack came after me to talk to me , to solve this out I guess it was really over. He didn't care. But this was so all of a sudden I don't want to believe this , please be a dream.
"Here" Jack said handing me the textbook "you're welcome" he said and turned around and walked away.
I just sat there in shock. Was this really happening? Usually Jack would comfort me, make up with me , he would never leave me alone , crying and now he was being such an asshole. I didn't even wanted to cry anymore this was all just too confusing.
Me and Jack really are over but I don't know why and when this happened. Clearly for him it was so easy to just forget about what we had ; which I thought was special.
I guess gilinsky was that cocky attractive bastard that did use girls like his fuckin toys. Once he plays you , gets bored , he gets rid of you without any talk or reason.
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