Loved // j.g

First Love Is Hard to Forget

I've been sitting here outside since Jack came and left, I cried , yelled at myself for loving him , cried a little more , picked out every single flaw in me , made myself feel terrible. I did everything. It was now about 2:25pm and school ends in 5 minutes.

I don't even have a ride to go home , I can't even call my parents; they're at work. Usually I never bring my car because I always come in Jack's jeep but now things are gonna change. I need to forget about Jack.

It wasn't that easy , every little thing reminded me of Jack , this was getting on my nerves. Fuck Jack.

I texted Jake and asked him if he could give me a ride home , he agreed and told me to meet him in the parking lot, that reminds me im probably gonna have to face Jack again but who fuckin cares right? I need to show him im not ending my life over him ; I've got better things to live for.

I gathered myself and got up from the bench and walked towards the parking lot , I cleaned my face and reapplied makeup , I didn't wanted to look like a mess.

I walked towards the parking lot and waited infront of Jake's car as I saw sammy head towards my way and he came up to me. "are you okay, are you done crying, don't cry lovely and how's your knee?" He asked nicely "I'm okay everything is good" i said and then it hit me. Wait how does sammy know about all this?

Amazing.

Jack sent him to check up on me.

Way to go gilinsky.

"He sent you here didn't he?" I said annoyedily "he who" sam said like he had no idea what I was talking about. "Tell him if he really did care about how I was doing he wouldn't have fucked this up" I said seriously but quietly , trying to keep my face neutral and not cry.

"Hanna I don't know what to say" he said "I'll see you later sammy I gotta go" I said as I saw Jake come out of the school. Finally all of this was over. I just wanted to go home. At this point I was so confused, first Jack acts like an asshole and then he sends sammy to check up on me? Why does he even care?

I'm so hurt . This is so wrong. I loved Jack so much and this one little thing comes and flips my world upside down. I'm just so over it. Fuck Jack. Fuck what we had.

"Hey cutie , how you feeling now?" Jake asked opening the car door for me, he had a bmw which was quiet impressive knowing the fact he was living on his own.

"I'm good, I'm starving can we go grab food" I wined. "Sure thing babe... --- I mean hanna" he said and I don't know why but I didn't get mad at him. I know he was used to calling me babe. This reminded me of old times and I didn't mind because I had a great time with Jake in those past years, no bad memories.

"It's okay Jake" I said smiling at him and his face lid up.

"Black widow" by iggy and Rita came was playing on the radio , Jake pulled the windows done as we started jamming out to the song I mean who doesn't like that song.

The car ride was quiet but comfortable and gladly Jake didn't ask me about Jack or anything and I was happy about that.

"so where are we going?" I asked breaking the silence looking at Jake , he smiled and I could see his jaw flinch and his cute little dimple "your pick love" he said keeping his eyes on the road "hmm what about McDonald's , I haven't had that in so long" i pouted.

"as you wish" Jake said and continued driving. I just took in how much his style changed over a year , he was dressed nicely , a watch on his right arm as always , his hair was gelled and all in its place , his jawline was sharp and his dimples were deep as the ocean. He was beautiful. He just looked so perfect sitting there me to me , his arms rested on the steering wheel and I think he noticed me staring at him "Why are you looking at me like that, is there something wrong with my face" he asked looking at me as we stopped at a red signal I immediately looked away and I felt my cheeks heat up "yes ..-- I mean no.. no wait never mind nothing" i stuttered looking away. Oh my god what was happening to me I need to stop myself why was I acting this way.