Loved // j.g

Rough Confessions

I couldn't believe what my eyes just saw standing past blake , on the other end of the hallway was jack.

He was roughly making out with a girl.

My heart dropped, my eyes pooled up with tears, was this really happening?

Jack was facing me but the girl's face was covering his face and she looked like she was about to eat his head off, jack was slammed against the locker and she was basically on him.

just in the morning he told me he loved me?

I started walking really fast as I was leaving the hallway , tears streaming down my face, jack's eyes met mine and he snatched himself away from the girl as soon as he saw me but I didn't care , I just ran out of the school , I kept running and running until I couldn't run no more, my eyes were blurry, my heart was pounding in my chest, everything was spinning around me.

I fell down to my knees , searching for air , my makeup was all smudged on my face and my body was sweating , I took off my hoodie , my body couldn't handle all this heat.

I could hear someone's footsteps behind me , it was jack "hanna wait please babe listen to me stop running" he was saying over and over again but I didn't care I got up from the sideway and kept running until I reached a dead end it was under a bridge, there was graffiti all over the walls and it was kinda gloomy , I came to a stop and just stood their in the corner facing the wall, I think I was having a panic attack it's like my whole world just flipped upside down I was too busy trying to catch my breath and figure out how to calm myself when I felt a tight grip around my waist.

"babe please breath , breath with me shh 1 , 2 , 3 .. shh it's gonna be okay" I heard jack whisper in my ear over and over again. He was the one who caused this and he was trying to calm me down?

I didn't push him away and didn't say nothing until I caught my breath and I shrugged away from him , "DONT U FUCKIN DARE TOUCH ME" I cried out punching him in the stomach a couple of times but I was crying so much I couldn't handle it anymore I just fell on jack's chest and cried and cried.

"hanna it's not what it looked like let me explain" he begged "YEAH GO FUCKIN HEAD EXPLAIN LETS SEE WHAT YOU GOT" I spat out.

"that was nicole , the school's biggest slut, before I met you I admit I made out with her a couple of times but it was only time pass, I've never been in love with someone before you came along. You came into my life and you changed me. I stopped even talking to other girls let alone kiss them. She came out of nowhere and pushed herself on me hanna, she started kissing me but I didn't kiss her back , I was trying to get her off me and then I saw you so I ran after you because I would never kiss a girl that's not you , I love you too fuckin much for that" he explained.

I was now calmed , I was angry but I wasn't angry at jack I was just angry. I loved jack so much I felt like I needed to let him know he's fuckin mine and no one else's.

I think jack was thinking the same thing because he pulled my face closer to his and stared into my eyes. I could stare at his face all day long, he took his hand and cleaned my cheeks , I hate looking ugly infront of him , my hair was a mess and my makeup was all smudged. "Jack don't look at me in this condition I look so ugly stop" I begged "hanna, listen to me , you look absolutely gorgeous wearing anything , I don't care what you wear you look good in everything , I like the way you bit your lip when you are nervous or embarrassed , I love the way your hair falls down on your back, and those little hair strands on your face , I love absolutely everything about you" he said.

"Jack I-" I started but couldn't finish as I felt jack's lips crush onto mine, his lips were soft and he bit my lower lip asking for permission, I opened my mouth as our tongues battled exploring every inch of each other's mouth, jack tasted like mint and caramel, jack deepened the kiss by slighting turning my head and getting me off my foot and wrapping my legs around his waist as I wrapped my arms around his neck never once breaking the kiss , jack pushed us against the wall and started kissing my neck as small moans escaped my mouth "jack ..." I moaned he stared bitting me lightly underneath my collarbones , I pulled him away and started leaving little kisses on his jawline making my way down to his neck , kissing him with everything that I had in me , I pulled down on his collar and started kissing his sweet spot making sure not to miss a spot . I heard him moan as he cursed "fuck" . He was making me want him more I couldn't take it anymore.

"Jack" I said looking him in the eyes , "I want you rightnow , I want to be as close to your as possible , I want you to touch me , touch me everywhere , I want to kiss every single spot on your body" I said kissing his earlobe and sucking on it lightly . "As much as I want you rightnow I want our first time to be very special babe , and I'm so happy you're finally ready to do this. You don't know how long I've waited for this" he said as he put me down , locking his fingers with mine , we starting walking towards the parking lot and got in the car , jack's car was parked further away from the other cars and I was kinda glad because I know things are about to go do.

We got in the car's back seat I took off jack's shirt and took off my tanktop leaving me in my bra , gladly I was wearing a really cute bra today which made my boobs look cute. Jack looked at my face , then my chest and I saw him bit his lips , he pulled me down on him and started kissing my lips roughly as he massaged my boobs from the fabric of my bra. I heard him say "I love you" inbetween kisses and moans and I managed to say " I love you jack" this was getting too much I was getting tingly sensations all over my body , I didn't even realize when jack turned us over now I was under him and he was grinding on my hips making my mouth escape loud moans , I digged my nails deeper into his bare back as he stared kissing my neck and my sweet spot , he looked down at my bra with so much lust in his eyes, he was asking for permission I nodded my head , he unhooked my bra and took it off with his big soft hands , he made sure not to put too much weight on my body underneath him , he started massaging my boobs slowing making me moan, lightly as he started sucking on my nipples causing me to scratch his back even harder , I wrapped my legs around his lower thighs as I dig deeper into his back. I slid my hand in his pants smiling at the bulge and teasing him slowly causing him to moan and curse at the same time , I put my hand in his boxers and took his length in my hands and started going up and down first slowly then I fastened the pace causing jack to groan "fuck , fuckin hell , shit shit" he was moaning and cursing at the same time . I stopped as I kissed him one last time on the lips before we both sat down to catch our breaths. Our bodies were sweaty now and I smiled at the view infront of me jack was sitting next to me with his arm around me and my hand was in his lap. "I don't know how I stopped myself from fucking you right here in the car back seat " he said looking at me with a smirk. "I could say the same about you I mean look at you" I said as I kissed his cheek a couple of times.

I put my bra back on and my tank top as jack put his shirt back on.

There was no way we were doing back to school now so we just headed to a pizza place.

we both ordered a cheese pizza to go with 2 cokes and left the restaurant.

Now we were home sitting on his couch , eating pizza , I barely ate one slice while jack basically ate like 5 , he was sipping on his coke when he noticed something "hanna why aren't you eating" he asked confusedly "I'm not hungry jack" I lied smiling weakly.

" you know babe I know exactly when you are lying to me , you always start rubbing your hands together and your face turns slightly red" he said.

"why aren't you eating tell me? I can order Chinese if you want there's food in the fridge I'll go get what you want to eat babe what do-" I cut him off . "Jack I can't eat" I said quietly . "why not" he asked as a look of worry appeared on his face".

"jack I don't get the time to workout and I can't eat , I can't get fat , I don't want to be called fat , I don't want to look ugly i-" he cut me off "hanna, you are not ugly , you are not fat, you are perfect don't you dare put yourself down like that, I don't care if you don't workout I like you just the way you are, I can't find a single flaw in you babe" he said calmly but in a serious tone.

I was out of words. I didn't know what to say. The inside part of me that was always falling apart was coming together since jack came into my life. I couldn't save myself from the voices inside my head but jack did.

"here I'll feed you" jack said as he bought a slice of pizza close to my face and I let him feed me. I believed everything I said. He was right he doesn't want me to change. He likes me just the way I am.

"I love you so much jack gilinsky you don't have the slightest clue" I said getting up from my seat and sitting on his lap . "I love you so much more hanna steven and you can't even imagine how much I love you" he said as he pulled my face closer to his and kissed my forehead , then my nose , my cheeks and finally I pulled him in to kiss his lips.

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