Loved // j.g

Friends?

Sammy's POV
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(ignore my typos bc not edited)

I woke up because I really had the urge to pee , I opened my eyes and everything felt unfamiliar , my head was throbbing , my eyes were heavy it took me a while to process everything in.
I wasn't in my room and for heaven's sake I remembered nothing.
Oh shoot , I was in Jack's living room, I noticed as I got up from the couch sitting up, rubbing my eyes and taking in the surrounding. I brushed my hand against my face and realized I had dry blood plastered on my upper lip.
My head was killing me but I gathered myself up and walked up to the bathroom looking at the time it was 9am, I did my business and washed up my face.
Now I remember fighting with Jack last night and what I said.
I remember bits of last night but it doesn't look good at all.
I got myself some water from the fridge and added some lemon juice to it and drank it up.
I fucked this up so badly, I must have passed out last night.
well no shit I did.
So basically I kissed my bestfriend's girlfriend and spilled it out myself to him?
Amazing job dude.

He's never gonna talk to me again it's the whole ashley thing all over again but instead it's the opposite this time.
Me and Jack have had our ups and downs but I don't wanna lose him as a friend, we go waaaaaaaaaay back. I need to say my sorry and work things out hopefully I didn't mess them up that badly infact it's not fully my fault. Hanna kissed me too, she liked it but no feelings attached.

I quietly walked out the door before leaving a post it note on the fridge and headed home since I did not wanna face Jack just now , I have nothing to say yet.
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Hanna's POV
I opened my eyes lazily eyeing my phone and checking the time it was almost 10am , I took my time to wake up fully and remembered the last night events.
Oh boy it wasn't good.

I was sleeping in Jack's guest room because since last night Jack walked out on me and was in his room and had his door closed and I didn't even bother going in because I know he's mad and I need to give him his space, I made a mistake and I need to fix it , it's not Jack's fault if I were in his place I would react the same way.
I got out of bed, walking up to the bathroom, doing my stuff, brushing my teeth with toothpaste on my finger tip because I didn't have my toothbrush, I looked in the mirror, holyshit I was a mess, my hair was all over the place somewhat straight and somewhat wavy , my eyes were bloodshot just a bit though and my under bags were not dark considering I barely got any sleep, I kept tossing and turning and missing Jack's presence of course. It feels so incomplete without him , I hate depending on him for my happiness, he could literally leave me and I'll be left with nothing , no happiness but only memories and sadness.

I pushed those thoughts away, even thinking about that made my heart and head hurt I can't let that happen.
I'll apologize it will be okay and we'll be back to normal you know ... Us ... Well that's what I hope for.
I got out of the room and walked towards Jack's room and his door was still closed, I really wanted to go in and see if he's sleeping or awake I don't care I just want to see him.
Without thinking of the consequences i turned his door knob and fling open his door carefully and quietly and my heart literally skipped a beat seeing Jack laying on the bed, lightly snoring, looking perfect as fuck like always, he was laying flat on his back, his body covered in his blanket but his one foot slightly out and I realized he was sleeping with a pillow on his chest hugging it tightly.
Maybe he was holding that because he missed me but he was mad at me so obviously he couldn't just talk to me like before or we couldn't sleep together.
His face still managed to look so perfect even in the morning, he looked so cute and adorable sleeping while I looked like a big mess.
I walked up to him and sat beside him lightly and he moved but gladly didn't wake up just re-adjusted his position.
I ran my hand through his messy hair, smiling at my view, just looking at him made me happy and gave me that feeling of happiness and satisfaction deep inside you know that feeling when you just look at someone and you feel good, you feel nice and start to smile like a retard? yeah that's the feeling im talking about.
I bent down to kiss his forehead as I felt a tug on my shoulder and realized Jack was pulling on my arm and making me hold him. He was still asleep but he wrapped my arm around him.
There's no way I can get out of this position without waking him up. Like obviously I don't wanna leave him but I know as soon as he wakes up he'll flinch away from me , not talk to me.

Jack's POV
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I barely slept last night I kept thinking of what's gonna happen to hanna.. Us.

Rightnow hanna was in my room sitting on my bed, I know when she came to my room and she was staring at me this whole time but I pretended like I'm sleeping because I don't know what's gonna happen when we talk about last night.
She kissed my forehead and it felt so good, something about her cute little kisses just gets to me, all these little things she does makes me fall in love with her even more.
I purposely tugged on her arm because I missed her, I like the feeling of her skin against mine that sounds creep but it's true.
I inhaled her scent she smelled like strawberries as always maybe that's her body wash or shampoo i don't care but it smells good.
I didn't want to let her go.
But come on I can't forget what she did, I keep thinking it's my fault and she wants to get out of this relationship so there's no commitment involved.
She. Kissed. My. Bestfriend. While. She. Was. Dating. Me. Behind. My. Fuckin. Back.
Those words kept playing again and again in my mind.
Yeah I punched sam and practically beat the shit out of him but obviously if hanna didn't like it, I know sam he wouldn't force her to kiss him.
They both liked the kiss, I don't even wanna know the whole story because both of them had nothing to prove , nothing to say to defend themselves.
Currently hanna was brushing her fingertips against my jawline, she always does that, I mean I know I have a killer jaw I'll give myself that but it's cute how she's always tracing it.
I couldn't help it anymore i fling opened my eyes and hanna practically jumped when her eyes connected mine.
"Ja..Jack I thought you .. you were asleep" she stuttered.
She always stutters when she's scared, nervous or afraid.
What the fuck did I scare her or something?
I was about to say I've been awake and knew this whole time she was sitting on my bed but that would be weird so I kept that thought lowkey.
"well, I am awake now" I said harshly.
I hate being rude to her but there's no choice I have to be the strong one here and make better choices.
"are you still Uhh.. mad at me?" She asked pursing her lips and looking away quickly , never meeting my eyes.
"what makes you think I am not?" I said in a serious tone but not loudly because I know she gets scared easily.
"Jack we can fix this.. We can fix .. Us" she begged.
"seems like you don't want "us" to be a thing you know" i said quietly but harshly.
I can't believe she kissed sam like what the fuck where did that come from ? I don't want to think further into this but what if this isn't the first time she's done this behind my back?
I trust her but she always somehow makes me regret it.
There's just been too much shit going on , I need a break from all this. This is not me. I don't do relationships , I don't swing this way , I don't get hurt; I hate being this way, I hate feeling used, betrayed all that bullshit.
I am Jack Gilinsky I don't fuckin get upset over girls . This is not me.
I got up from my bed and walked to the bathroom leaving hanna sitting on my bed still as she sat there with a blank expression on her face trying to study my reaction.
I did my business and walked out after about 5 minutes and hanna was still sitting in the same exact spot.
"We need to talk" I said.
"I know I'm sorry Jack" she started but I cut her off.
"this isn't working .. I don't think I can do this anymore" i said rubbing the back of my head and avoiding eye contact because I knew if I looked at her I couldn't be able to leave her.
Trust me this is not easy for me to me, but I have to do this, give her and myself time so she can figure out what she really wants.
"are .. yo..you breaking up with me?" She asked her face full of pain and shock .
"I'm just giving you time to think .. rethink your choices ... rethink us" i said casually , all of this was true like obviously I love hanna but she keeps fucking this up I need to give her space. She makes it feel like this relationship is a burden for her and she doesn't want me as much as she used to before.
"Jack you don't have to do this" she said quietly.
"Oh trust me hanna , I do" i said.
"But Jack .." She started but I cut her off.
"we are still gonna be friends you know.. Neigbours .. classmates , all that stuff just not boyfriend girlfriend anymore" i explained and I saw her whole face change I know she was hurt but I guess this is right for the both of us.
"woah" was all she managed to say.
"you should go now" I said calmly.
"way to start off my day" she said sarcastically.
"I still love you and only you, nothing will change that just remember that" she said before she turned around and walked out my bedroom door and I just stood there feeling hopeless and stupid.

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