Loved // j.g

Mixed Emotions

((this whole time i forgot to give hanna a last name so I'll do that rn her name is hanna steven))

Jack's POV :
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It's been about 10 minutes and hanna still didn't come back I started to get worried ; "eh excuse me I'm quickly gonna goto the restroom" I said to sam and ash as I got up from my chair.

I was gonna knock on the bathroom door but since no one was around I didn't really care I just walked in , as I swing opened the door I saw her. I saw her falling apart. I saw her crying. My heart hurts looking at her cry. She doesn't know how badly it hurts me to see her upset let alone cry. I couldn't think straight ; did I do something wrong? did I say something that hurt her? Did I hurt her?

We just stood there staring at each other for a couple of minutes and that made me burst out of my thoughts and run to where she was standing , her face was all full of smudged mascara from all the tears.

I held her close to my body wrapping my arms around her ; "shhh baby girl what's wrong?" I ask quietly she just continues crying and I felt heart broken looking at her like this. I wanna make her feel loved and make her feel happy all the time I can't even do that .

"Jack" she slowly mumbles and pulls away from me I carefully tried to read her expression it was like she wanted to get away from me... did she not like me anyone? all the bad thoughts came rushing through my head ; fuck it I can't lose her.

she picks her phone up from the sink and hands it to me.

I couldn't believe what my eyes just saw.

It was jake.

Her past.

Her ex.

Her first love.

was this her way of breaking up with?

was she trying to tell me she still has feelings for jake but she felt guilty so she's standing here infront of me crying her eyes out?

I didn't even need an answer. Something gave me an answer.

It was his contact name.

It said "jake baby💘"

It all made sense now.

the first day we kissed she got a text from her "ex" she never really let me in her life because i was just a fuckin time pass for her. She played me so fuckin well. I was amazed. The only reason we never did it, is because she's saving herself for that asshole jake?

Who the fuck was I to her? A time pass? Someone she used to forget her boyfriend?

"well played hanna steven" I said sarcastically while clapping twice.

She looked at me as if she didn't know what I was talking about ---- "you aren't as fuckin innocent as you look ..." I spit out' .

"Jack what are you talking about?" She asked confusedly .

"this whole time you fuckin used me and now that your "boyfriend" is coming to meet you , you cause this fuckin scene to make yourself look innocent and break up with me" I said in a really harsh tone.

"JACK WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT" she yells between cries --- "NOW I FUCKIN GET IT YOU USED ME TO GET OVER JAKE AND NOW THAT HES COMING TO MEET YOU , YOU ARE JUST GONNA END WHATEVER THE FUCK WE HAD JUST LIKE THAT" I yell back .

I couldn't take it anymore I punch the mirror next to me as hard as I could ; the mirror shattered all around the place into a million pieces and I felt pain shot up my fist but I didn't care it was better than all the pain that this girl right infront of me caused me .

I see hanna run towards me taking my hand in her hand trying to take the pieces of glass out of my knuckles "jack are you okay OHMY-" I cut her off "don't you dare fuckin touch me ; good job you did it , you fuckin broke my heart now you can go back to your boyfriend hanna" I said angrily and barged out of the restroom and walked straight to my car.

I didn't care what sammy or ashley thought or who will give hanna a ride home I just wanted to forget about her , her beautiful fuckin face , her adorable little giggles , her fuckin cuteness , her shyness and her fuckin hugs and kisses.

Hanna's POV

I just stood there in a shock , I've never seen jack this angry and this hurt I could see it on his face. It took me a while to take in what I just caused for myself. It was actually all my fault this time. I never really broke up with jake. I never told jake I found a new guy , a guy who made me feel all the things I didn't even know were possible to feel. I guy who made me feel beautiful everyday , made me love myself ; did I just lose the love of my life?

I knew what I did was so wrong I basically did break up with my boyfriend I don't know what I'd do without him and now that jake is gonna come visit me I don't even know how to think or what to feel . I don't think I ever forgot about jake I mean my life was perfect back in New Jersey I had the friends who were always there for me , my boyfriend it was all perfect .

Maybe I did use jack.

But I didn't mean too.

I never hugged him, kissed him or even talked to him thinking about the fact that he can make me get over jake. It was never like that. I loved jack. I need to leave jake behind.

Why did I never tell jake that I've moved on? I think jake still thinks of us like old times.

I was too weak to even walk I just wanted to lock myself in my room and cry I whipped my face and left the restroom.

Ashley came running towards me "han what happened with you and jack ... He just left and he seemed really upset" she said "we had a fight can you tell sammy to give me a ride home please?" I say smiling weakly.

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It was currently 11pm and sammy and ashley just dropped me home I just told them goodbye and ran upstairs to my room.

I noticed blake was home his room's lights were on , i ran to my bed and just sat there crying ---------------------------

"hanna are you alright do you wanna talk about it" I heard blake say " no it's nothing" I said looking at him .

"DID JACK DO SOMETHING IM GONNA KICK HIS FUCKIN ASS" he said angrily.

"Blake it's not him it's me. I hurt him this time and I don't even know how to make up for it " I said weakly "blake I just wanna goto sleep we'll talk tomorrow goodnight blake" I said

I heard blake walk out my door closing my door and turning off my lights on the way out.

I missed having jack's arms around me while I fell asleep , I need to talk to jack the first thing in the morning I don't care what it takes I can't loose him. He's my world.

I can't make him think I used him because I didn't I loved him from the bottom of him heart and I still love him and I can't afford to lose him.

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