Loved // j.g

I Gotta Stay High All The Time

Sammy's POV

I can't believe what I just did oh my god like I need to relax myself. I kissed hanna and I know she liked it but I don't regret shit man, it's because I don't "love" her like I don't even know what love is, true im with ashley but it's not some spiritual soul shit, she's pretty, funny , outgoing and we understand each other so we are going out plus she's good in bed I mean yeah.

I remember the first day I saw hanna, she was incredibly gorgeous but she wasn't a slut or a attention seeker she was cute, and shy. At first things were different I was in a fight with Jack and ironically enough she's now his girlfriend.

That kiss meant nothing to mean I mean it doesn't change shit right? I just wanted to kiss her because I was attracted to her and I see the way she looks at me .

If gilinsky ever finds out about this kiss im so fucked, and I don't wanna be that "guy" who fucks up relationships so this will stay lowkey but again this doesn't change anything. I feel bad for doing it to my bestfriend's girlfriend but come on we are young people growing up we make mistakes.

Jack's POV

I've been driving around in my jeep for the longest time now, it's starting to get dark and I have no clue where im going, the radio was blasting French Montana and he's a pretty sick dude, his songs have a meaning about life other than being about sex and drugs.

I don't exactly know how to feel.

I'm just fuckin hurt you know, hanna lied to me, I wasn't her first time and I can't believe I didn't notice that, I mean I don't care if I wasn't her first but what was the point of lying?

I was so faithful to her this whole time, okay yeah I fucked up a couple of times but so what at least I didn't lie.

Plus she was fucking kissing that jackass Alex. Like what the fuck do you not get your needs satisfied by being with me.

I understand alex was her first time; must've been special but Jasmine was my first but do you see me kissing her? No.

I gotta admit I've changed so much since hanna happened, I like to believe it was for good but sometimes I didn't really believe that for example rightnow.

Am I really fuckin upset over a girl rightnow? This shit is all new to me; I don't do relationships and emotional talk that's what pussies do but I guess I changed .

Hanna needs to explain this time .

Currently I was sitting in a place which no one knows about, I've never told anyone about this place, it was away from the city crowd, the lights, everything , behind these woods, there's a pond, so peaceful, so quiet and just breathtaking.

There's a bunch of rocks in the surrounding and I come here to get shit off my mind and always bring my shit along to get high and just chill you know.

I've got my weed , my lighter, my tinfoil water bootle everything, I used to get high all the time it's a great feeling you know. But I stopped when hanna came into my life because she made my life beautiful, I wanted to be with her and be myself, didn't need to get high to forget my emotions and shit.

My phone started ringing I grabbed it out of my pocket and it was hanna , I decided to pick up.

Hanna : hello, Jack, please don't hang up

Me : I'm here .

Hanna : oh my god Jack where are you it's been so long since you left are you okay ?

Me: I'm fine.

Hanna : please tell me where you are im gonna come get you

Me : no , don't.