Loved // j.g

I Couldnt Save Her

*4 weeks later*

It's been almost a month since me and Jack broke up. I didn't want to believe this was actually happening.

All these days I would goto school because I had no choice , I saw Jack everyday , he was happy , always laughing , always smiling , I somehow managed to make it through all these days by sitting in the same class as Jack but I told my teacher i had trouble seeing , from the back so I moved up to the front ; i mean how was I suppose to sit right next to Jack and watch him act like nothing ever happened between us? If what we had was real how was he so happy? Was it even real or was it all in my head?

At this point I even stopped thinking about what I could've done differently to stop this from happening because what's done is done.

I've started to spend a lot of time with Jake ... I liked it. He's always been my bestfriend and even though I don't have a boyfriend rightnow , im not ready to move on because I still have that one ray of hope that maybe Jack misses me too? Maybe Jack wants to fix this between us too? Maybe he still thinks about the times we had? Maybe he remembers our last kiss too?

I was emotionally a mess but physically... I played it cool. I always dressed up nicely, did my make up, looked presentable , didn't show anyone how much I really was hurting. I hate being weak. I hate depending on someone for my happiness in this situation it happened to be gilinsky.

I barely left my room , I barely ate , I was starting to work out a lot again , maybe that jasmine girl is way prettier than me . I still have no clue who jasmine is and I didn't even bother asking sammy because I know he would act like he doesn't know. Jack was acting like such an asshole I can't believe it's the same guy I fell in love with.

I missed Jack, not a second of my life he left my mind, my room smelled like him, everything reminded me of him it takes so much to not just sit there and cry my eyes out.

Today was a Friday night and I decided to stay home from school it was around 7pm and today ashley and nicole and Rachel decided to take me out to a club.

Basically nicole and blake are dating now and they're getting pretty serious me and nicole made up and now we are pretty close friends and she doesn't have anything to do with Jack ... Well they're only friends now. Rachel is the girl Jake met at the restaurant and they really seems to like each other but they're still figuring out their relationship. Ashley and sammy are still going good and I was happy about that because getting out of a relationship was fucking depressing.

They all forced me to come to this party happening in downtown at a club because they decided it's time for me to "move on" to "let lose" to go easy on myself and meet new people and live my life because that's exactly what Jack is doing.

I didn't even try to tell them no because it was 3 against 1 so obviously they'd drag me along.

I took a shower and was currently blow drying my hair and started playing the weeknd on my phone which also reminded me of Jack because the first time we had it, the weeknd was playing in the background. amazing.

My hair was getting long again it was almost till my lower back and I decided to curl it instead of leaving it natural because Jack loved it when I left my hair natural but today I wasn't getting ready for Jack , I was getting ready for myself.

I pulled out a nude color dress from my closet, I've never worn it before so I decided to wear it , it fell till my mid thighs hugging my curves not gonna lie it made my ass look big and exposed my cleavage. I threw my hair into a high ponytail , finishing up my make up and walking downstairs , spraying myself a couple of times before I headed downstairs.