Loved // j.g

You Know I Love You

Broken.

Shocked.

Torn.

Depressed.

Disappointed.

Sad.

Amazed.

Torn.

Hurt.

All of those above would be an understatement to what I was feeling rightnow.

I've had my fights with Jack no biggie we dealt with them but this time?

It was all a fuckin lie?

Jack never really .. Loved me?

This was all a fun game for him?

I really wish all of this was a dream but no this was actually happening.

It's been 3 hours I've been sitting in my bed crying , sobbing you know the typical and trying to find reasons where it all went wrong because you know it always felt so .. so real.

There's no way this was all an act. Like yeah you can pretend to love someone but not for this long.

There's so many things Jack has done to save me, to make me happy how could all that be a lie?

But after tonight's talk in the car I can't think of anything good that Jack has done to me but everything bad he's done.

Fuck Jack.

People get cheated on, get their heart broken all the fuckin time.

I just need to man up stop crying like a little girl and show him im better than this.

I fuckin hate him for doing this to me. I hate for getting in his trap . Fuck him.

How are Sam and him even bestfriends they're fuckin so far from each other in personality.

There's 6 more days until Jack leaves for California and I'll never have to see his ugly face again oh wait who am I kidding?

Ugly face?

He's got the most beautiful face I've ever seen, just looking at him makes me feel some type of way let alone dating him for over a year.

This is gonna be fuckin hard.

But no more crying, I gotta have some self respect.

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The next morning I woke up for school, got ready as if nothing has happened.

Right now I was in school and as I entered the doors, walking towards my locker I could feel all the eyes on me, giving me looks , mumbling shit about me towards themselves and I heard some guys whistling at me it's because that was my point.

Already people think I am a slut so why not prove act like it? So there I am.

I'm wearing a neon crop top which is nothing more than a bra, showing off my curves and my belly button piercing , my hair is in a fancy up-do and I'm wearing a pair of black short shorts which could go as undies just saying. I could feel my butt cheeks hanging out and my cleavage was way too exposing but hey that's what the guys like, don't they?

As I got to my locker I opened it getting out some books and a book fell down and I bent down to pick it up as I heard someone talk behind me

"woaaaah, the view is pretty interesting" they said and it took me a second to recognize Alex's voice.