Started With A Dare

thirty five

Tzuyu's POV

JH: Tzuyu, what's wrong?

I wish unnie hadn't run after me, I wanted some air.

TY: Ah, ah... Nothing's wrong, I just needed some air. I also feel kind of.... Bloated I think...

JH: Tzuyu-ah, if you feel weird, you could've just told me! Everyone inside is worrying about you! You made such a scene, we are all so concerned right now?

Did... Did PDnim saw? Aw God... Why must this happen to me? They were all so worried about me... Why? Did I really cause such a commotion? Im not that important to be in someone's mind... No...

JH: Tzuyu-ah... I didn't mean it as if I was mad at you, it's okay to feel a little queasy sometimes, I was just so worried about you!

TY: D-Did PDnim s-saw?

JH: hmm?

I gulped and my breathing became faster.

JH: I'm not sure, I don't think so... They got a really far away table from us, you know?

TY: Ah... Okay... Okay...

JH: Why? Is something wrong?

TY: Ani! Aniyo! I was just scared that PDnim might scold me for causing such a commotion...

JH: Aww come on, he'll even pity you! You know he can't stand us if we get teary eyed right?

TY: Ah, yes... yes...

JH: So, shall we come back in?

TY: Ah, unnie... You can go in first... I'll just catch some fresh air, I've barely been outside since our latest comeback you know?

JH: Hmm, okay! Just shout if you see any weird looking men, or if you just need help in general... Scream 'UNNIEEEEEE!!!!'

TY: Tssss, unnie! You didn't have to be so loud...

JH: Aish, you have to be so loud. Just be careful okay? Okay...

I nodded and she went right back in. I sat down on the floor, with my legs folded up. My chin was rested on my knees... What's wrong with me...

There's actually something that's been bothering me lately.. There's a sunbaenim in our company, he's still trainee... He's been... He's been weird to me lately. I've never told anyone about it.

I didn't want him to get in trouble, his name is Kim Chan Wo. He's a funny looking guy, he isn't even that handsome... He confessed to me a little while back.

Throwback:

I was walking peacefully in the halls of the building, as usual actually. I was alone, all of my unnies had gone to a cafe and I wasn't feeling in the mood for coffee actually... I should've went with them.

That day, I felt a tap on my shoulder. It was Chan Wo sunbaenim...

TY: Ah sunbaenim... Annyeonghaseyo!
CW: Ah, you don't have to be so formal around me... Just call me oppa...
TY: Excuse me?
CW: Aish, it's nothing...

I could clearly remember that moment, it was so vivid. I hated how it was so vivid in my memory... This hasn't been a while back, but it was really recent actually, it's surprising.

CW: Tzuyu-ah, I have something to tell you...
TY: Oh? Okay...

I think at this point, I knew where things were taking a turn. I knew what was gonna happen, but I thought nothing bad will happen... I wish I did something about it before I had talked with him.

TY: No one else seems to be here, is it private?
CW: Well, you see...

And then and there, he had confessed. But I only see him as a sunbaenim... I do not really think of him as anything else other than a friend that is not so close, but however, is still a friend.

Aw God, how do I turn this down now?

TY: Ah, sunbaenim...
CW: Ne? Shall I give you time to think about it for a while? Or do you want to go out already?
TY: well, sunbaenim... Mianheyo, you have been nice to me as my senior... But I'm not really up for dating now...
CW: Aww come on! We can keep it a secret...

He put his hand on my waist as he came closer to me... He cornered me to a wall...

TY: Sunbaenim, Mian, but I really don't like you... You see... I-
CW: WHAT ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT? YOU SHAMELESS SLUT!
TY: Yah, sunbaenim... Please don't get mad...
CW: Aish, you really think I won't get mad??!!! WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU TALKING ABOUT! ARE YOU ACTING REALLY DUMB RIGHT NOW?!!
TY: Sunbaenim... Please keep your voice down... I-
CW: SO WHAT IF I'M LOUD!?? FUCK YOU! YOU CLEARLY FLIRTED WITH ME FIRST! YOU MOTHER FUCKING PIG! WHAT A SLUT! YOU PLASTIC FLIRT!

he slapped me and I wanted to cry, but I think that he would've shouted at me louder if I had cried... I couldn't talk...

I so badly wanted to, I so badly tried to, but I really couldn't. My voice was gone, and so was my pity.

I suddenly kicked his crotch which made him hurt like hell, he got down holding his crotch. As he slowly stumbled down, I ran, I ran as fast as I can. I could hear him shouting and calling really bad names and swearing at me... I didn't feel sorry.

As I ran, I could feel the tears run down from the side of my cheeks travelling to my ear because of the really fast pace I was running at. I didn't care, I just really really really wanted to get out of here, I wanted to get far away from that monster, as far as possible.

I never flirted with him, no. I would never even have the confidence to do such a thing. I do admit that I had been kind to him these past few months since me and my unnie's were getting closer to the trainees when one approached us.

But is that really considered as flirting in the world of men? As I was running, I looked around the building, it seemed like no one else was there. No one was there to console me, no one was there to tell me that it was not alright, and so I believed that it was my fault.

Later that night, I went to the bathroom and moped and moped. I saw a blade... And I picked it up...

I held it up and observed it carefully, then I slowly held it against my finger, and it slided. I was shaking, then I suddenly threw it away. What's wrong with me...