Started With A Dare

fifty two

Jungkook's POV

She slowly unveiled all her problems to me. One by one, all the pain she's been going through. How is it possible for a person to look so happy but is dying inside? I won't be able to tell she's going through so so much if you just look at her face, but now that i know what she's going through, there is a piece of hurt in her eyes. 

now that i've seen her point of things, i  know she is screaming inside, she just wants to stay in a sanctuary. i can be her sanctuary. she says she's only opened up about it to two people, including me. that's a lot of pain to keep, so why keep it in tzu? you could always just vent out, it's an understandable problem.

JK: Tzuyu... who...who hurt you?

TY: hmm?

she looked at me with a surprised expression. then tzuyu looks down at her lap.

TY: I can't-

JK: You forget that you hurt yourself too don't you? you've been keeping it all to yourself, continuously trying to keep yourself sane even if it's too hard. you always feel guilty for things you didn't do and you blame yourself... you're hurting you.

TY: i know that... i'm a monster, which is why i'm taking action and trying to open up slowly...

JK: I didn't mean it that way, you're not a monster. you're just ruining yourself, your mental health, even if you know there are many of us who love you. you choose to keep it in when you know you shouldn't. you're doing great progress, tzu...

She froze.  looking far off in the distance, staring blankly at the far corner of the room.

TY: i- i can't help it...

she suddenly burst into tears, more and more came every second. did i make her cry? i quickly sit down next to her, laying my arm around her and i start to apologize.

JK: i'm sorry, i just don't want you to wreck yourself okay?

TY: don't apologize, you have no fault. thank you...

JK: i love you~

i whisper into the air,  my words swayed with the wind and gone like dust. it was so quiet, so subtle, but she heard it.

TY: me too, i love you too...

she whispered into my ear and hugged me. is this real? does she really love me back? 

TY: th-thank you...

JK: hmm?

TY: thank you for listening to me... i really needed that.

She was now staring deeply in my eyes, right through my soul. I could almost hear my heart beating as we  look at each other longingly for a very long time. I didn't know what her intentions were at first, but suddenly I realize she was definitely waiting for something. So i made he move. I swoop in, i could feel her breath on my lips. Pretty soon, it wasn't just her breath that i could feel on my lips anymore. it started with a peck, it became a real kiss. my first kiss... it felt great.

we pause after a while to catch our breath, she was smiling. I was happy. We were both red, but we both definitely liked that. I could see the sparkle in her eye, the tension in the room grew, then she leaned in to kiss me again, i was into it.

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We felt so big, as if everything around us was small. It was just the two of us in the world. I can't believe she's my girlfriend now and this house is ours. This story's ours.

I thought that since this was the day I confessed to her, we should do something big. The first thing we do as a couple. It was getting dark, there were still people outside so we decided to wait until midnight. As we were waiting, i was leaned on the wall and she layed on my chest. We were holding hands, like it was an anime. Then I heard a bell.

she is the one.

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We walk out, there were no people anymore, it's  two in the morning. Tzuyu was holding on to my hand as i lead her to different places I used to go to when I was a trainee. Old memories come running back to my mind, but it was time to renew them, renew them with her. We went to the well I used to throw coins in during my trainee years. All my wishes are there, they all came true.

JK: I'm serious! I think i've spent almost 10 000 won just to make it all come true

TY: so you wished for BTS to be successful? what year was that?

JK: somewhere between 2012 and 2013, it was when I first heard the group name...

TY: that's cute, when you still had that bowl cut and side swept bangs-

JK: Hey!! it was the trend back then, our concept was gangsters... you were about 14 back then, weren't you?

TY: right...

JK: geez, i've always thought i'd date someone older than me...

TY: i bet you wished to date IU before, huhh?

JK: Hmm, close enough... i wished to date someone like IU, you're much better than any girl in this world.

She smiled at me then turned a light red, she jumped in my arms and hugged me.

JK: do you want to go home yet? won't your unnies be mad?

TY: don't mind them, but yeah i might have to go home a little later...let's go to my  favorite spot first.

She tugged on my shirt and i held her hand, i had no idea where she was taking me but i loved it.

TY: this is the place I used to go to when I was new to korea.

It was a bridge. There were some cars, but our backs were turned so it didn't matter No one will recognize us. The water was reflecting different colors of lights.

TY: I've always known that someday i'd be jumping off right here...

JK: wh-why?

TY: i don't know, i just have a hunch. I fell in love with this bridge because it was the first thing i laid my eyes on as soon as i've arrived form the airport. I saw it from the huge glass windows they have at airports, neon lights lit up at night. The water reflecting the lights, so much flare, it looked so great.

JK: so.. why jump off?

TY:  i want to die here, it's pretty. i feel like if ghosts are really real, and if i become a ghost... it would be great if this was the place i'd get stuck in.

JK: okay, we got to stop talking about death, it's creeping me out..

She laughs loudly, with genuine happiness. But behind those smiles, i know now... I know what's up, what's going on, what's wrong. i'm worried about her.