Denial - a Breddy fanfic

13.

He still thinks you're disgusting and you know it.
Brett tried to shove the thought that alerted it's presence when Eddy pulled away.
"Oh eh... sorry, I didn't... uh... know..." Bretty managed to say before moving himself slightly further away from Eddy. The voice needed to shut up. The only reason he'd pull away was because this was new to him. He just needed time.
Time to find a way to get away from you yeah.
"Sorry, Bretty, I'm just not used to... this... you know?" he said with his soft angelic voice. Just the sound of it so close made Brett's head spin, and his cheeks burn. And the nickname.'Bretty'. Sure, Eddy had used that nickname before in a joking manner, but this time it felt so sincere. So real.
Eddy moved to his knees next to Brett. It was close ebough for Brett to feel the warmth of Eddy's body without them actually touching. Eddy took Brett's hand and held it between his soft palms. His long fingers covered Brett's smaller hand easily.
"No, no worries, Eddy. I don't want you to feel pressured", Brett said while turning his head to look at Eddy. How tempting it was to just lean in and let their lips touch again, like they had the night they confessed how they felt.
"It's fine, Brett, as long as we're not... outside..." Eddy said slowly, seeming to pick his words with care.
He's embarrased of being with you.
Again, Brett tried to shove the voice away again, but it had planted just a vague hint of doubt in his head. He nodded to Eddy.
"No outside affection. Got it."
Brett could understand Eddy's need to keep this hidden while it was still so fresh, but it was so hard when all Brett wanted to do was to scream out to the world how incredibly lucky he was to be able to hold this man in his arms.
Wonder if he feels as lucky holding your disgusting self?
He flinched at the voice, causing Eddy to let go of his hand. Brett bit his lower lip and closed his eyes. Stupid annoying voice for making Eddy let go. Couldn't it just shut up and quit making him doubt Eddy? Eddy would tell him if something was wrong, they always talked about Eddy's problems. If he had any, he would tell him.
Would he, though?