Wife's Benefits

Chapter 8

Chapter 8: Wife's Benefits ~

 

 

                Micah and I were still dancing at the veranda under the big bright moon. He was still humming a song . We danced that night, Micah and I, danced barefeet in the cold wet undergrowth while the moon poured its wild old silver down on us. We danced as Micah sang softly in his baritone.

                "It's twelve in the morning, we've danced the whole night through..."

                When he stopped singing and we stopped dancing, he kissed me.

                "You know what? I could still recall the memories we had in our youth stage. Nakakamiss", I gasped.

                "What part of it you missed?"

                "Everything".

                Back to the past nang malaman kong buntis nga ako, hindi ako lumabas ng kwarto. I was crying the whole day. Hindi ko alam kung ano ang gagawin ko. I'm really scared. Paano ko sasabihin 'to kay Micah? How if hindi niya ako panagutan? Paano kung iwan niya akong bigla? Paano ko rin ito sasabihin sa parents ko? Natatakot ako.

                In the old mirror, I leaned to meet this spectral girl who stood... or floated... in front of my bedroom. I looked at my image in the mirror and thought for a moment. Kapag lumaki ang tiyan ko, surely I'll become ugly, tataba ako, papanget ang katawan ko, lalaspag ako, haggard palagi and surely if that happened, iiwan din ako ni Micah at maghahanap siya ng bagong girlfriend na mas maganda at sexy pa sa akin. I don't want that to happen. Ayoko pang mabuntis, I'm not yet ready. I want to get married first. Ano'ng gagawin ko? Sasabihin ko ba ito kay Micah? I'm really scared.

                Nagsisisi na ako ngayon, sana hindi na lang namin sinubukan. Sana inisip muna namin ang magiging consequence ng experience na 'yon. But kailangan pa rin malaman ni Micah na buntis ako.

                Pinuntahan ko si Micah sa kanila. He was in his room. Pinaakyat na ako ng mama niya sa kwarto niya. I found him in his computer chair at naglalaro siya ng online games.

                "Micah", tawag ko.

                "Yeah?", sambit niya nang hindi inaalis ang tingin sa monitor.

                "We need to talk".

                "Ano yun? Go ahead", wala pa rin ang atensyon niya sa akin.

                "Tigilan mo na nga yan. Humarap ka nga sa akin", naiinis na sabi ko.

                Humarap nga siya sa akin at itinigil ang ginagawa niya.

                "Ganyan ba talaga 'yan kaimportante at pumunta ka pa talaga dito? Sana tumawag ka na lang", pagbibiro niya.

                I turned a rapt face on him. "Hindi joke ang sasabihin ko sayo. I'm sure kapag narinig mo ang sasabihin ko, mawawala 'yang ngiti sa mga labi mo", I said, sarcasticly.

                "Parang ganito ba?", from his smiling face turned into a very disappointed reaction. His face  fell down, but ngumiti ulit siya ng nakakaloko.

                "Micah, wag na tayong maglokohan. I'm pregnant".

                The smile on his face faded. I knew it. I fell silent , heart flooding my chest and face. The edges of my hairline were suddenly wet. Then he gave me a slow smile but without the sweetness. I turned around, I don't want to see his reaction. I knew it from the start na hindi siya matutuwa sa sasabihin ko.