Wife's Benefits

Chapter 9

Chapter 9: Wife's Benefits ~

        "Xenia, I have something to confess to you", sabi ni Micah habang nakapalupot ang mga braso niya sa akin at hawak-hawak ang mga kamay ko.

        Nasa veranda pa rin kami at pinagmamasdan ang kalangitan at ang kaliwanagan ng buwan.

        "What is it?", tanong ko.

        He put his lips near to my ears and whispered. "Alam mo bang hindi ka magaling magluto?"

        "Huh?"

        I didn't know if he was just kidding or not. We've been together for so many years, pero ngayon niya lang 'yon sinabi. All this time, hindi pala ako magaling magluto. I never knew, how could I have knew? He never told me, only this time.

        "All this time, Micah? All this time?"

        He laughed. "I never told you, kasi baka magalit ka. Pinipilit ko na lang ubusin yung pagkain mo, kahit hindi ako nasasarapan. 'Yung adobo mong napakatamis, 'yung sinigang mong napakatabang na kulang na kulang sa asim. Haha, funny. Pero ngayon sanay na ako at immune na immune na ako sa mga luto mo".

        "I hate you for not telling me", I tapped his arms.

        "Tell me what you love most on our past, Xenia", he said, holding me loosely against him. His chin rested at the top of my head. I could feel the warmth of his body through his shirt.

        "Our make out moment of love in your house tapos tawag sayo ng tawag ang mama mo. That was the funniest thing I'll never forget".

        "No, really. What do you love best about your life?"

        I thought. I thought for a slow moment. I thought for the single moments that happened in my entire life. My childhood life, the teenage and high school life, I thought for a moment when I first met Micah, when we had our first kiss on our first date, our first experienced, our first baby who was aborted, our second baby who never also had a chance to live, our marriage, about having Allison and... hanggang doon na lang siguro ang masasayang alaala na nangyari sa buhay ko.

        "I love it all except the bitter life I had", I said against Micah's shirt. "There isn't a single atom of it that I don't love bago ka umalis noon".

        "Could you leave it all? Kalimutan mo na ang mga hindi magagandang alaala?"

        "I'm trying, pero ikaw dapat ang sabihan ko ng ganyan 'di ba?"

        "I already did. Ikaw ba kaya mo?"

        "Yes", I said.

        Back to the past, after malaglag ang baby namin ni Micah for the second time, parang may mga nagbago na. Micah have changed. He became cold to me and he never treated me like before. Nabawasan na rin ang pagmamahal niya. It hurts me everytime na parang binabalewala niya ako. I tried so hard para maibalik ang dating pagmamahal niya sa akin. Ginawa ko ang lahat ng magpapasaya sa kanya, but then I end up with nothing.

        It was one late night nang umuwi si Micah na lasing na lasing. Sobra talaga siyang lasing dahil hindi na niya makontrol ang katawan niya. Ibinagsak niya ang katawan niya sa kama na parang pagod na pagod. Hinubad ko ang damit niya at pinunasan siya ng basang bimpo.

        "You know I hated you for killing my two angels, but then I still love you. Why you are so selfish? I hate you for that", he murmured, nakapikit ang mga mata niya.