Legacy

Chapter 40

"So tell me what's up?" Ali said sitting on her bed as Emily sat down to join her.
"What isn't?" Emily said lying down defeated. She had had enough. She wanted to say everything but didn't know how. She knew she couldn't tell Ali everything but wanted to tell her as someone who would listen but where was she meant to start. After keeping everything in.
"You don't have to tell me," Ali said lying back on the bed next to her, "but I mean it would be could to you know, tell your nest friend!"
"I'm just sick and tired of having to have it all together all the time. It's always Beca don't do this and Beca is doing that. And Stacie is doing this and Stacie is in charge and then Addy is now going through a mid life CRISIS! And doesn't know what's happening with her. And she is struggling at school and then it's like we will forget even exists. And everyone thinks I'm fucking perfect when, everything may not be! You know what I mean?" Emily stopped she knew she was being vague but didn't know how to explain. The main problem was her family which she couldn't fully explain. Ali pauses thinking about what to tell her.
"I mean personally, no. I don't know what your going through, but and this might sound crazy but actually talking to them? Tell them how you feel? And I mean you don't have to tell them all at once unless it's easier? But I understand if that's not what you wanna do? What do you wanna do about it?"
"Ugh I don't know it's like I want to show I'm not perfect all the time!" Emily said shoving a pillow in her face.
"Don't do something stupid though! Like don't go and graffiti a police station or anything like that?" Ali said.
"Darn it that's exactly what I was gonna do. Of course not I'm not an idiot!" Emily said smacking Ali with the pillow.
"I just want to be heard, someone to know that I'm struggling too!" Emily said lying down and curling up on her side.
"I know you are."
"I know. I just I, don't get me wrong I love my family, but I don't always want to be the one holding everything together. And I can't just brake down like the others, literally Stacie fully on had a melt down tonight. Addy has gone around swearing and slamming doors. And Beca is distant but for once she was the one keeping it together. And then I was just there too.  Like it's not like anything meant me being there I mean I did snap and walk out, and I felt bad. But they always did it. But does it make me crazy that I know Stacie will ask me what's wrong but I don't know if I wanna talk to her? God I'm crazy!"
"No your not crazy, you're hurting. Changes everything!" Ali says hugging Emily.
"You know what we could do now?" Emily said turning to look Ali in the eye.
"What?" Ali said. Her eyes flicker between her lips and her eyes. Emily pauses and does the same Ali leans in slowly closing the gab between them as Emily can slowly feel Ali's warm breathe hit her lips she sits up.
"We could go rob a bank! That would get attention." Emily said not looking back at Ali knowing what would have just happened.
"Um, how about no! We could keep it slow maybe." Ali said looking up at the ceiling.
"Yea let's take things slow."