4 A.M. Thoughts

Thoughts

I get left alone with my thoughts alot. Sometimes its good. Most times it isnt.... I start  thinking and i never stop. But occasionally i think of you. I remember the memories i had with you. Most of them weren't bad. Then i remember how it ended. We stopped talking...  I left you behind... Sometimes i regret it but not very often. You changed. Drastically. And thats okay, because i did too..

Im left alone with my thoughts alot. And thats okay. I sometimes think of you too. We had a good time and i went and messed that up. Thats on me.... I understand why you left. I just wish i could have had the chance to say im sorry.

Im left alone with my thoughts alot. Most of the time i think of you. And i blame myself for how it ended. Maybe if i did something different.... maybe. But I'll never know.  And it hurts knowing you moved on so quickly, but i deserve the pain. Because i cause you so much of it.  And for that, I'm sorry. And i know i dont deserve your forgiveness.

When im left alone with my thoughts, i barely think of you. But when i do, i get angry because i didnt deserve what you did. You constantly lied when all i did was tell the truth. And that hurt the most. So how am i supposed ro forgive you? I dont think i ever will. Because you never said sorry.

All of you changed my life in one way or another.  Not gonna lie, i got hurt. A. LOT.  But i still thank you all. You helped me grow. And thats easier to remember than the pain sometimes

I got asked the question, "If you could go back in time and change one thing, what would you change?" It really made me think. I never actually answered. But now i answer with one word....

Nothing...