4 A.M. Thoughts

She said its my fault...

She texted me 2 nights ago
Even though she blocked me on everything
She unblocked me just to tell me
Its my fault she left
She said i made her feel terrible
Because i would still hang out with friends
Instead of staying around her all the time
She said that i was the issue
That i didnt do enough
She said that i should have tried harder
When in reality
I couldnt
I was not in the right state of mind
I let her do what she wanted
Yet she wanted more
Things i couldnt give her
And i told her that
I told her i tried
And that it was me
I agreed that i was the issue
Thats all it took
Because she said goodbye
She only texted me to tell me
Just how much i fucked up
The worst part is
I was willing to try to be friends with her
Even though she cheated
And then lied about it
I was still willing to be her friend
I was trying to be the bigger person
Not anymore
Im tired of being blamed for shit that i cant control
So im done being nice
Im just going to be the stone cold bitch i am
So this is fucking war
From here on out
So sorry for anyone i hurt
Because I wont realize
Until its too late