4 A.M. Thoughts

Family

Everyone has a family

In some sort of way

But today I want to tell you about mine

It seems pretty normal

Sister, brother and father

But there is someone missing

My mom

She is there

But at the same time she isn't

Sure she gave me life

But she is also the same one that destroyed it

Because that is what she does

She will pretend to care

But once she gets what she wants,

She leaves

I find that funny in a way

Because she chose her wants

Over her own family

And I really don't care 

I hated her from the get-go

Because she only cares about herself

Not me

Not my brother

Not even her favorite child; my sister

At a young age

More specifically: I was a little over a year old 

And she chose a beat up car 

Over custody or even visitation with me

Then a couple years later

She just completely left

No goodbye. 

Nothing

Because like I said

She doesn't care

She claims she does

But she is doing a really shitty job

Of actually showing it

The only time she will "care" 

Is when i have or do something 

That can benefit her 

In any way, shape, form

I know it

She knows it

Everyone that knows my family knows it too

Because its just that obvious

So its pointless for her to pretend:

To love me

To even remotely care

Because everyone knows you don't

So fuck off