4 A.M. Thoughts

Lunch Conversations

Its been a topic at lunch
About what has gone on
And i get very passionate about it
Because i know what im talking about

This topic, i am very fond of
Because i know what im talking about
And she is too
She knows that
I know that

Today was no exception
We went onto a different section
But still on the same topic

I dont understand how you do it
Because you can love so much
Yet you back away when they start to love you
You claim you're scared
And i get that you are

But you are supposed to tell them
Because they can help you get through it
You are supposed to trust them
Talk to them

Yet you dont
Which i guess is okay
But you also cant run and hide
At the first sign of trouble

Thats not how it works
And i meant it when i told her
That she was the best thing that happened to you
Because she was
Not me
Not him
Her

And i say that with complete certainty
Because i have never seen you happier
Than when you were with her
Sure you guys might have had some issues
But they were minor
They were fixable

So why is it so hard to fix it?
She has a pure heart
She doesn't judge
And i know you know that
What were you so scared of?

You told her you needed to figure yourself out.
You could have done that with her
Im sure she would have loved to help
But you pushed her away

Im not saying what you did was wrong
But it wasnt the only option
Because i know you hate hurting people
I know you care
But breaking things off hurts more
And i say that from experience

She was still there when you were with him
She stayed when i was so close to leaving
Because she wants to be in your life
Why cant you see that?

Im not writing this to make you feel guilty
So please dont think that
Im just speaking my mind
And im being honest
Something that i always try to be

So pay attention