4 A.M. Thoughts

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I thought about going back

I really did

The more i think about it

The worse it truly seems

If i went back

Yeah i would see them

And that would be great

But i changed

And they are stuck

Stuck in their old ways

They are stuck in time

The whole town is

The things and people there

Dont really change

Thats why its home

It will always be my home

I just cant go back

They all know what happened

All of them will think

That im just like her

And im not

Im nothing like her

I never have

And i never will be

But they wont see it that way

Because back home,

Your fate is decided for you

No matter what

You will always end up doing

What they expect you to

Because you wouldnt want them

To see you as a coward

Because then home would really be home

It would be hell

And im already in hell

So why would i go back?

If its just the same?