4 A.M. Thoughts

Toxic

The thoughts of us have been keeping me up for nights now

And i know i shouldnt give you any of my time. You dont deserve it

But i cant help but think about it from time to time

You were the most toxic person i had ever dated. Yet i gave you a chance. I thought it would change. But it didnt.

I felt terrible throughout the entire situation

I thought giving you everything would fix it. It only seemed to make it worse

I couldnt even hang out with my friends. You wanted all of my free time. Thats not how it works

Im supposed to be able to talk to my friends

Im supposed to do what i want to

I dont constantly have to be around you. Because thats not how a relationship works

Sure, i might have said a lot of shit that i shouldnt have at the time. But i meant every word

And you know what

Im happy you ended it when you did

Because at least i know my worth

And i still talk to my friends

The ones you didnt want me around

Because they are my friends. I knew them before i knew you. And im sorry, but if i have to lose friends for a relationship to work, then i dont want the relationship

No relationship should make me lose people i care about

You are fucking toxic

And im glad you are gone