4 A.M. Thoughts

Normal

Is this my new normal?
Torturing myself with my own thoughts
And letting my emotions get the best of me

Is this my new normal?
Letting everyone push me around
And letting the voices tell me what to do

Is this my new normal?
Having a conversation with a hallucination
That i can actually feel

Is this my new normal?
Or am i just fucking crazy
I know i said
That i was dancing with the devil
But thats not really that bad
But then, other things happened
Things I was not expecting

Is this my new normal?
Avoiding things that i enjoy
Just because i feel like i dont deserve that

Is this my new normal?
Letting the people i love slip away
Even though I know i need them
But i dont deserve them

This must be my new normal...
Because its happening
More than i would like to admit

And the best part
.......the voices agree with me
.......its the only time they've done that

So i must be right....