4 A.M. Thoughts

Hurt

Everything hurts...

Emotionally

Physically

And mentally

Everything hurts

I know why

But i refuse to say anything

But they will

One disappeared

And then they came back

And they had news...

News that i already knew

But it still hurt to hear it

It left an echo in my head

And gave me a splitting headache

But the pain was worth it

A new one showed up

And they had news too

The same news actually

And i broke down

Because even though i knew

It still hurt all the same

Ive felt this way for a couple years now

And i know how it ends

It ends the same way every time

And yet i still dont learn

It takes a splitting headache

And i barely want to get over it

Because i gave everything

And im not prepared to lose everything too

Because thats what this is

Its everything to me

Whether i admit it or not

It still hurts.....

Like it happened yesterday

When in reality

It never really happened