4 A.M. Thoughts

I didnt mean to

I didnt mean to
It just kinda happened
I wasnt supposed to break down
Especially in front of you
I shouldn't have
But i didnt really have control of myself
Recently it seems i havent

I didnt mean to
And you shouldnt have had to witness it
But you did
Im so fucking sorry about that
Im sorry about a lot of things
Because you deserve better

I didnt mean to
But i did anyway
Knowing exactly what would happen
I guess i thought
It would magically change
But it never will

I didnt mean to
But i never really stopped
And i probably should
Because at this point,
Its just a bunch of false hope
Thats all it ever really was

I didnt mean to
But i didnt really do anything
But i could of
And im probably bot going to
Because its the right thing to do
I should just forget it ever existed

I didnt mean to
But it was just so easy
At the time anyway
Now im hurting
And im facing consequences

I really didnt mean to
Because now im just lost
And i wont be found again...