4 A.M. Thoughts

:/

This shouldnt be this hard
It never was before..
This time is different
Both good and bad

I was just going to stop talking
Hide everything
And eventually let it consume me

Ive tried for months
Ive tried closing off
Ive been distant
But every time
Every time im almost there
From completely closing from the world
You pull me back

I dont get it
Out of all of the people we know
Why talk to me?
Im not complaining
Im just curious

Because everytime i see you
I have to talk to you
Even if its just a simple hello
Thats been my normal for so long

The rest of my normal is crashing
So why isnt this?
Im confused
And i feel really weak

It was supposed to be easy
I wasnt supposed to look back
But i did
And I stayed
Even though they told me not to

I tried leaving
Because i was just causing problems
I still am
I make things complicated

So i will tru again
To stop talking
So things can try to be normal

The way they were before i showed up
Because you guys were so happy
Then i came along
And ruined that happy

Im sorry i ruined it
I didn't try to
But i can make it better

Things will go back to the way they were
Before i showed up..