Fatal Redemption | J.J.K.

LXIX

JUNGKOOK;
I've had the same dream over and over ever since we've moved to Silverton. It always starts the same and ends the same.

Not matter how hard I try to save her, she always dies in my arms. I always feel like it's my fault, like I wasn't on time to save her or I didn't try hard enough to keep her alive.

—

I heard the lightning boom and crack that erupted everywhere. It was always the same sound every time.

I'm running, I don't know where to but I always end up in the same spot.

As I run I see the same dark figure on top of a person who always appeared to be a girl.

'It' was biting her neck. My known instinct and first move was to always get the figure off of her first. I push the creature off of the girl and we tumble a few feet away.

I always attacked it, I felt my heartbreak every time when I hear her whimpering in pain.

I heard her whimper and start to back away from us, she was smart.

The creature stands up and looks at me, I never see its face, only its glowing red eyes.

I start to fight the black figure and eventually bite into it. It dies and I run off to find the girl.

I hear her cry out in pain then scream, it's time. I find her leaning on a tree, it was blocking her way.

Why does the tree always look so familiar?

I pick her up and set her on my lap. I held her close to me, it was also a known instinct. I look down at her but never see her face.

"I'm here —, I'm here"

I know I say her name but I just can't say it, my brain won't let me.

"I'm sorry —" I say it because it's my fault, it's my fault she's dying.

"— don't leave me. I'm sorry I'm sorry" I whimper into her hair as I rock her back and forth.

She was dying, I could feel it in my soul. I heard footsteps surround us, I didn't dare look up, it's not like I can see who it is anyway.

"I love you Jeongguk"

"I love you-"

—

I jolt awake, drenched in sweat. The way she says my name breaks my heart every time.

I always felt an emotional attachment to her. Even when I could never see her face or hear her voice, the love feels somewhat... real.

My thoughts were dragged back to my dream, why did she always have to die?

I picked up my phone and looked at the time, '4:38 am'

I sighed, what is it with this time? I always woke up to it.

And why was she always out there... Alone?

I sat up in bed and put my head in my hands, I haven't had a decent nights sleep without having that nightmare.

I was growing tired of it.

What does it mean?

Why am I having it?

I want to talk to someone about it but I fear being judged and being called crazy. I could tell Paige, I knew she wouldn't do either of those things but I was scared.

What if I scare her away?

That was my biggest fear, scaring her away with the real me. If I have to hide it from her forever then I'll do just that.

I just found her and I'm not planning on losing her anytime soon.

I shook the negative thoughts away and stood up, I bet no one was up at this time. I've been avoiding my brothers, especially Jimin.

I know they want to talk about what happened the other day but I don't want to.

I didn't know what that was and I'm scared that it would come back. I controlled it the first time, but what will happen if I can't the next time it rolls around?

I walked out of my room and went down the stairs. I saw the lights that were turned on in the kitchen.

I walked in and saw Jin, being the most gifted of all vampires he rarely got sleep. Most of the time his visions would keep him awake.

That's how he got into cooking, he usually stayed up through the nights and learned new recipes and created his own dishes.

He always surprised us when he made dishes, I'm sure if he wasn't a vampire he could be the head chef of his own restaurant.

"Morning" Jin smiled and browsed through his full box of personal cook books. His own recipes, signature dishes and favorite meals.

"Morning, what are you doing?" I asked as he continued looking through.

"Aha!" He exclaimed and got out an old dusty book, he looked at me as he held it.

"Do you know what Paige's second favorite dish is?" He asked since he already knew the first.

"I know she really likes salmon and asparagus" I answered.

Paige loved anything with a high protein count.

"I like her taste in food" He smiled and looked through his book for a recipe that had the two main foods.

"You should invite Paige over for dinner, I really want to see her again. It's always a good time when she's here" Jin said as I smiled.

"Yeah, I'll ask her" I said.

—

Two hours passed by of Jin and I coming up with the menu for the dinner this Friday. We both finished it and I left it get ready for school.

Once I got my school bag together I left in my car and drove to Paige's house. I smiled when I saw her walking towards my car.

There's not a day that goes by when she doesn't take my breath away. I get out and open the door for her and run to get into the driver side.

I give her a kiss, "Morning"

"Morning Kookie" she smiles and I melt at the gesture.

I drive us both to school and park in the student lot. I look at her and smile, she rolls her eyes.

She hates school and Lebron James with the same burning passion.

We both get out and walk hand in hand towards the entrance.

I remember Jin's words from this morning,

"My brother wanted me to invite you over for dinner, they really seem to like you" I smiled as we walked into school.

"Really, why would they like me?" She asks as I hold the door open for her to enter first.

"Maybe the same reason why I like you. You are smart, funny, and the most beautiful girl I've ever seen" I answer as she blushed.

"Aw Jungkookie" She smiles, "Ok I'll go"