May 2011
New school year is about to begin in a month, I will be already in my Junior year pero parang ayoko nang mag-aral pa. Andrew cut all the connections. He had a girlfriend already at ipinamuka niya sa akin na I was just his fvcking bestfriend.
"Drew." Excited kong bungad sa kaniya sa Skype. I was about to tell him that my family will move to America after I graduate.
"What's with the face?" Bored niyang tanong.
I was about to explode the news when a girl entered his room.
"Hi babe." The girl says happily.
"I'll call you back." Sabi ni Andrew and all I can see is a black and blank screen, he turned off the call.
And earlier I've asked him about what happened last night. Ayaw niyang tumawag at ayaw niya ring sagutin ang mga tawag ko sa Skype pero nakikipagpalitan siya sa akin ng message.
"You never told me that you have a girlfriend already." I typed.
"Do I need to report everything to you?" He answered.
"No. I just. Nevermind. Why aren't you answering my calls?" I felt sadness.
"I just don't want to. You're just what Meg?" He's like accusing me of something.
"Nothing." I simply typed. I don't want to end it in a fight.
"Really? Or you're just jealous. Because all this time you think that I'm just yours." He accused.
"Of course not! Besides you're not a thing to own." Depensa ko.
"Then what am I to you? Who am I to you?" He asked.
I can't answer his questions.
"Can't answer right? Not because we kept on communicating means that we already have a relationship, you're just my bestfriend Meg. 'Wag kang umasta na tila niloko kita. And now stop bugging me, I found my love so stop wasting your time on me."
That was his last message and I didn't bother to reply anymore. He's evil. He hurted me. But I don't want to delete it because I need to remind myself that it was all gone, my friend, my first love. It took time before I admit to myself that I was inlove to him. But now, I need to forget about that love because it hurts big time.
After a month of forgetting the world I decided to go to the subdivision's park. Pasukan na rin sa susunod na linggo so I need some fresh air, ang sakit na sa ulo ng four corners ng kwarto ko at ang pagiging emo, nakakapangit. I'm planning to draw the nature for now so I brought my sketch pad with me. Nakakagaan ng pakiramdam ang hangin at ang payapang paligid dito. It's just six am in the morning kaya wala pang masiyadong tao. Some were just having their jog. Wala pang mga bata na naglalaro sa playground kaya tahimik pa. Gustong gusto kong magsketch ng magandang paligid pero puro pangit lang ang kinalalabasan nito so ang ending panay shoot sa basurahan ang mga pahina ng sketch pad ko. Ayoko na, last na talaga at wala pangit pa din so shoot na naman sa basurahan. I was about to stand when someone talked.
"Kaawa naman ang mga tagalinis dito." Someone said while approaching me.
Pawis na pawis ang lalaki habang papalapit sa akin. Siguro ay kakatapos lang niya magjogging. But wait, ngayon ko lang siya nakita. Maliit lang ang subdivision kung saan kami nakatira at dito na ko lumaki kaya kahit hindi ako gaanong lumalabas ay halos kilala ko lahat ng nakatira dito.
"Then ikaw maglinis para naman hindi sila kaawa." Nakataas kilay kong sinabi.
"Klark Andrei Lucero, your new neighbor." Nakangiti niyang sinabi habang nakalahad ang kaniyang kamay.
"Sabay na tayong maglakad pauwi." Dagdag pa niya.
He's what?! New neighbor? Sina Mrs. Robles kaya ang nakatira sa katabi ng bahay namin. I packed my things and immediately walk. Mamaya he's some sort of kidnapper. Mahirap na.
"You're funny." Aniya nang maabutan niya ko sa paglalakad.
"You're scary." I uttered habang mas binibilisan pa ang paglalakad.
"You're too blunt. He's right about you." Aniya habang natatawa.
"And you don't care. Who's that he that you are talking about?" Pagtataray ko.
"And you're not listening. I'm a Lucero." Aniya na siyang nakapagpatigil sa akin.
"You're what?" Magkaharap na kami ngayon at nasa tapat na ng aming bahay.
"Klark Andrei Lucero youngest brother of the great Kiel Andrew Lucero. Your new neighbor who bought the house of Mrs. Robles, my aunt." Nakangisi niyang sinabi. It's like a bomb that answered those fucking questions in my mind.
"O, I see. But you know what. I don't even care." Hatred was evident in my voice.
"What did he do to you? It seems that hatred grows in your heart. Don't worry he's not here." Nakangisi pa rin siya and it's so irritating.
"I don't care if he's here or not. Can you just please stop asking some stupid questions!" Medyo tumaas na ang aking boses sa inis.
"I won't. Because I care. But not to you. He's my brother. You've turned him into a monster. Don't worry I am not here for you." Bored niyang sinabi.
"You're not here for me? But you live next to mine and you're bugging me with those accusations. You know what. Wala na akong paki sa kaniya. For the record, I never did anything to him. In fact, siya nga ang may kasalanan sa akin. If you don't mind papasok na ako ha. Nice meeting you Klark." I said before leaving.
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