Stay Unfocused (COMPLETED)

Chapter 8

June 2011

New school year. Boring. I will be forced again to have classes everyday. Home-schooling would be better but thanks to my dad, he gave me a not so normal life by enrolling me again here at St. Martha which I have no one except from myself and those faded memories. Normal for me was being alone and being stuck in our house especially in my room. Bell rings, means that classes were about to start. It's already 7:05 am when our professor came in with the guy at her back.

"Good morning class." Maligaya niyang bungad.

"Good morning too Ms. Lea." Balik pagbati ng buong klase except me. I was looking intently at the guy, so he's now my classmate huh, stalker. Tch.

"As you can see, we have our new student here. Feel free to introduce yourself." Ms. Lea warmly said.

"Good morning everyone, I'm Klark Andrei Lucero." Bored niyang sinabi.

I heard murmurs and gasps from my classmates. Like his brother, this guy has this super masungit na aura. Mukha siyang hindi approachable with those eyes that can kill you just by looking. He also has long thick lashes na mas nagpatapang sa mga mata niya, very opposite with him. They have different eyes but both have those thick brows na makapal pero sobrang ayos; ilong na matangos din; those pinkish lips; the jawline; he really looked like his brother except from the eyes. Drew's eyes were soft because of his lashes na mahahaba pero maninipis, nakakatunaw kung tumingin unlike this one na tila ka papatayin. Because I am very lucky, he'll be my new seatmate.

"Loner. Tch." Aniya matapos umupo sa katabi kong upuan.

Hindi ko na lang siya pinansin besides he's right. One thing that I like seating here at the back is because I wanted to be alone. I'm here to study not to make friends because it's so darn hard to trust someone and life is like a survival game, you were born alone and will die alone. Natapos ang buong maghapon na payapa, salamat naman at hindi siya nagsalita the whole time, better that way. Malapit na ako sa gate nang sumabay siya paglalakad.

"Are you really like this?" He asked.

"Like what?" Tanong ko pabalik nang hindi siya tinitignan at patuloy lang sa paglalakad.

"Like you just existed but never live." Makahulugan niyang sinabi.

Napatigil ako sa sinabi niya. Did I? I asked myself. This guy is ruining my thoughts and my sanity. Hinarap ko siya bago magsalita.

"How could you say that? We just met once and you're acting like we've known each other for so long. Two words. Stop meddling." Matapang kong sinabi.

Ngumiti muna siya bago muling magsalita. At ngumiti pa talaga siya ha. Nakangiti siya habang tinatanggal ang distansiya sa pagitan naming dalawa.

"Live Meg. Life is too short to hate everything and everyone." He whispered in my ears before leaving me dumbfounded.

July 2011

Acquaintance Party

After a month we were still like that, magkatabi pero hindi nag-uusap. I hate his presence. I hate his existence. He reminds me of, what's his name again? Oh, that guy, his brother. And I hate also this party that I was forced to attend. I'm just doing this because my dad commanded me. He owns fifty percent of this school so being the good and only daughter, here I am. Yeah it sucks but do I have a choice? None. The other side of my brain answered.

"That was too deep." He uttered.

I just gave him a what-are-you-talking-about-look.

"The sea. Like you. I can't see the depths but I can feel it." He smiled.

"Dig deep. Swim deeper." I simply said.

"But would you allow me?" He asked.

"No. You are just like your brother. Talking to me when you want to, just observing and waiting. I don't like it. Only brave persons can see the depth." I explained without looking at him.

"Your walls were too high. Talking to you is like a math problem and most of the people hated it but I do love math, too complicated and too worthy. I am not that brave to see the depths alone but please allow me and be with me while digging deep and swimming deeper. So now, tell me your story and let's start as friends." He calmly said. I took courage to look at him, he's looking at me intently while smiling.

"You ask and I'll answer. I can't narrate everything to you. It will be hard for me but I think it will help me bigtime. Thank you for the courage. But don't flatter yourself I'm just doing this to live like what you've said. Thank you for doing this even if I don't know the reason why." I said and smiled.