Complete| Jikook

19

It's 4am and I have nothing better to do so...

Of course Jungkook felt broken...he had every right to be, he always spoke of how the past was in the past and there was in no way of changing it, but he still felt that spark of hate ignite towards his father for keeping the knowledge of Jeonsan away from him.

He could have been such a good dad, he would have witnessed Jeonsan grow from such a small infant...but he didn't. He even thought that maybe the bond between him and Jeonsan would be stronger if he'd always been around.

He was surprised when Jimin didn't completely freak out but just continued to comfort him to his best abilities. Jungkook could barely breathe while explaining it all, he remembered feeling his heart beating against his rib cage, trying to find Jimin's gaze but not being able to because of the tears blurring his vision, he remembered desperately trying to breathe but at the same time just not, he wanted it all to be a bad dream.

After he finished telling Jimin everything the other got him a soft fuzzy blanket, he dragged a chair from the kitchen to the living area, he made Jungkook lay down on the couch, Jimin then covered Jungkook's body with the fuzzy blanket.

He sat in the chair above him and hummed a sweet melody while stroking Jungkook's locks until he fell asleep, Jimin knew that during the state Jungkook was in sleep was something he needed.

Jin brought Jeonsan into the living room once Jimin said it was okay to, the toddler took notice of his dad sleeping on the couch and begged Jimin to also. Jimin of course agreed, he knew if Jungkook woke up with Jeonsan in his arms he woud be more calm.

So Jimin helped Jeonsan up onto the couch, the toddler then slid under the fuzzy blanket, into Jungkook's arms. He buried his head into Jungkook's chest and soon fell asleep. Jimin just sat there watching them feeling speechless, his mind felt so blank yet so full at the same time.

He could feel words dancing in his head telling him how to deal with this, but at the same time it felt like the words were in a different language and there truly was nothing for him to do.

He sighed standing up, him and Jin went into the kitchen, at first they just stared at each other, neither of them knowing what to say or even how to say it.

Jimin looked down dejectedly, he never remembered seeing Jungkook's father at his work years ago...and it hurt hearing how much Jungkook truly wanted to be there for them...

Why wasn't Jungkook angry at him? Why wasn't he yelling and screaming at him at this very moment... Jimin always used the things Jungkook said the day they broke up as his reasoning to keep Jeonsan's a secret from him but the more he thought about it...

That was such a dumb reason.

Jungkook put Jimin before himself during their relationship, yes they may have just been teens but Jimin truly felt the love Jungkook showed him and that he reciprocated. This really was all his fault.

"I know what you're thinking...and you need to stop." Jin cautioned. Jimin broke from his thoughts and looked up at Jin, "What do you me-mean?" Jimin asked, his voice slightly breaking off in the end. "I know right now you're thinking this is your fault...but Jimin you just can't have the mindset." Jin pleaded.

"W-why can't I? This is all my fault, everyone around me told me I needed him and I didn't listen, Jin even me my fucking self did but I didn't listen." Jimin blurted, his words holding a stiffness to them but at the same time a line of emotion.

"But we can't fix that Jimin, you could have just blocked his number and never met with him and went on with life when he asked you Jeonsan, but you didn't." Jin explained.

"B-but I wanted to..." Jimin murmured, eyes switching to the floor when he felt tears sliding to the corners of his eyes. "But you didn't." Jin whispered.

After an hour Jin had to leave, he made Jimin a little something to eat in hopes of steering him away from his thoughts, it did help a bit but not really. He was now sitting in the living room on that chair. He watched as both Jungkook and Jeonsan sleeped soundly.

He couldn't take his eyes off the two
Of them. He felt so much guilt it was just eating away at him. He watched as Jungkook shifted a bit which caused Jeonsan wake up.

"Dada?" Jeonsan squeaked against Jungkook's chest, "Yeah?" A somewhat groggy Jungkook replied, "Dada still sad?" Jeonsan asked shyly, Jungkook sat up a bit, "A little bit but you're here so I'm okay now." Jungkook explaimed, leaning down and pressing a soft kiss against Jeonsan's forehead.

After watching their adorable moment Jimin took a seat with them on the couch, he leaned his head onto Jungkook's shoulder and clenched his eyes shut, "I-I'm sorry." he stammered.

Those words caused Jungkook to sit straight up and bring Jimin closer to him, "please don't be." Jungkook whispered, Jeonsan behind him gripping onto his arm glancing up at Jimin with worry.

"B-but I should have just told you and all thi-" Jimin was stopped by Jungkook's palm rapidly being placed over his mouth. "I would do anything to go back and change it...but like I've said before we can't, I'm still angry at my father for not telling me, every second I wish I could have been there for when he was born or when he took his first steps, but I just have to accept that's not going to happen." Jungkook recounted.

Jimin's eyes widened and he stood up, he rushed over to a little book shelf. He came back holding two large photo albums and plopped back onto the couch with them.

"I kn-know I can't give you back all the things you missed but m-maybe this will help a little."
Jimin insisted. Jungkook nodded lightly, he leaned Jeonsan who was in his arms over a bit so he could see everything. Jimin opened the first side of the book, it was a picture from one of his later on ultrasound's and the picture almost instantly made Jungkook tear up.

He flickered his gaze to the other side seeing a  picture of newborn Jeonsan in his incubator. Once Jimin turned the page it was a picture of him in the hospital bed holding Jeonsan closely.

They went on with it for 30 minutes, Jungkook watched Jeonsan slowly age before his eyes in the pictures, his baby truly had come so far. By the end of it all Jungkook was sniffling as held Jeonsan close. "Thank you." Jungkook mumbled to Jimin when he closed the photo album.