I remember Marcelino once saying to me 'Mauricio you're the most caring person I know, which is why when you feel like someone has wronged you, you take it so personally'; maybe my brother was right. I mean I was quick to give to people and I was always getting fucked over and it all started with the nigga standing in front of me, this is where me and Marcelino differed Marcelino didn't hate our dad; the reason being is that Marcelino had no feelings for him whatsoever, sure he wanted a relationship with our brothers and he knew eventually they'd have to talk but he was pretty neutral on the situation. Me, my hatred knows no bounds because Markell Drake was the first person to hurt me.... and I hated him for it, I hated myself because, despite everything I still wanted this nigga's approval, I still wanted to know why he chose that bitch over us, I wanted to know why me and Marcelino weren't good enough for him. All this anger I had, all these abandonment issues, and all these daddy issues... they all start with him and I knew that I'd never be able to start healing until we had a conversation... a conversation that wouldn't be happening today because I was on some knock this nigga out type shyt.
"Whatever you gotta say make it quick, I'm still debating on whether or not I wanna swing on your bitch ass." I said looking at Markell and trying to contain my hatred of him. "Before you start though... I just wanna make one thing perfectly clear, if you're thinking about trying to get custody of me and Marcelino you got me and life fucked up because you're about fifteen years too late." I said.
"Nah I wouldn't do that to y'all.... I know I haven't been the best father but....." Markell said but I cut him off.
"Nigga you haven't been a father AT ALL.... at least not to me and Marcelino!" I said getting ever more heated because this nigga had been here all of thirty seconds and he was already making me regret talking to him in the first place.
"I heard you got a kid on the way and I figured that I should be involved in my grandchild's life and in order for me to do that I need to make things right with you and Marcelino." He said and all I could think how I was going to tell Marcelino's chest in when I saw him. "It wasn't Marcelino... I had a conversation with your girl's parents." He said and if I didn't have enough reasons not to like Ashanti's parents that just added to the list.
"Me and my child are going to be good... I know what not to do." I said peering into his eyes. "I've learned that when times get tough not to run away, I've learned to NEVER let some bitch make me choose between her and my seed, and I've learned that I can't go fifteen hours... let alone fifteen years without checking up on my kid."
"I heard you were building a relationship with Mystik and Magik, that's good I want my sons to know their brothers." He said as if I didn't call him out on all his shyt.
"So you're just going to ignore everything I just said?" I asked chuckling to myself because this nigga was a fuckin clown.
"Mauricio... I can tell you're not at a place where you wanna talk so I'm not going to force you to. I just want to start the process of healing. I know y'all are going out of town for Thanksgiving but when y'all get back I would love to invite you, Marcelino, and his b... his friend over for dinner." He said and there was a word he couldn't say that already told me that there was going to be an issue with Piru.
"Piru is Marcelino's BOYFRIEND they've been dating for a while now and I'm going to have to disrespectfully decline because if I go over there I'm going to be rude as fuck to that bitch you married and I would hate to beat your ass in your own house." I said and I could tell he was getting annoyed.
"Son... I'm trying.... but I'm not going to let you keep disrespecting my wife." He said as his jaw tightened and his fist clenched.
"See there was so much wrong with that statement... I'm not your son, I'm your offspring. You don't have the authority to LET me do anything... me and Marcelino have been taking care of each other since we were two and the only person with the authority to check me is him and vice versa. Finally, I'm going to always disrespect that BITCH for what she made you do and I'm always going to disrespect you for being a weak ass nigga and going along with it." I said smiling. "You know what.... I'm done talking...." I said before punching that nigga dead in the eye but to my surprise and annoyance, he didn't try to defend himself.
