I left the theater trying my hardest to control my anger because I knew if I stayed in there any longer I was going to go off on everybody; Kairo, Quincy, Tyrik, Fitz, the old lady who was trying to pretend to eavesdrop on our conversation... everyone. I knew I had anger issues, dangerous anger issues where I would blackout and... well y'all seen what I did to Quincy and I would never forgive myself if I did anything like that to anyone else, especially Kairo. I walked down the street trying to stop my hands from shaking, it's like..... it's like I had to punch something, someone, anyone..... I knew I probably looked crazy as fuck, walking in the pouring rain but I didn't care, I just needed to get somewhere that I could get myself together. As I was walking I noticed a church, it was Saturday so I highly doubted anyone was there, I walked up to the doors, walked inside and sat in the very back of the pews; okay now that I was alone I needed to think.... Maybe I should've listened to Kairo and Quincy before walking off but when I asked a very simple question I couldn't even get a straight answer.
"Are y'all fuckin?" I asked looking at the two of them and while Kairo looked incredulous, Quincy was smiling.
"Yes." Quincy said while at the exact same time Kairo said 'no', so one of them was lying and while I wanted to figure out which one I knew my temper and I wasn't trying to get arrested. Since neither one of them was giving me a straight answer, I removed myself from the situation entirely.
"So you didn't hear me calling me after your dumbass." Kairo said, I looked at him as he stood there, his long hair was drippin and I'm not going to lie he was sexy as fuck and for a split second I was tempted.... then I remembered I was mad at him and that I was in a church.
"I definitely hear you and I needed to calm down... no one told you to follow after ma Kairo." I said looking at him. "It's crazy.... never in a million years would I have thought that I'd find myself in a position where my cousin fucked my dude..." I said shaking my head.
"No one had to tell me to follow after you, you're my boyfriend and seeing you upset hurt me. Now, this is what happened between me and Quincy... One day after school I was heading home and he walked up to me, I knew he was your cousin so we started talking he was telling me how he was worried about you and how you seemed guilty about what happened to him. He wanted to talk so he invited me over to his apartment... we smoked and drank but I promise nothing happened, the next morning I had to get home because my mom was worried and I was in such a rush I left my jacket over there." Kairo said looking into my eyes.
"You were hanging out with my cousin basically talking shyt about me? Wow you might wanna stop digging because you're making it worse for yourself Kairo." I said looking at him. "You gotta admit it looks mad sus that you and him not only chilled but y'all seem like y'all are really close and you just really met him. I mean you barely knew him before his accident but now y'all seem like lovers and friends." I said quietly.
"Quincy is funny.... or at least he was before he started acting like a messy queen and we weren't talking shyt about you Ka'Jai.... I went there because I was worried about you, it seemed like every since you arrived in that group home you seem detached." Kairo said. "And when Quincy approached me, I thought that if I could get some insight from the person you were closest with in hindsight I probably should've come to you but you've been so damn busy. Look through your phone, check all the missed calls from me to you, look at the huge gaps between our text messages and how when you respond it's short one word answers." Kairo said.
"SO THAT GIVES YOU THE RIGHT TO FUCK MY COUSIN?!??!" I yelled.
"Ka'Jai I.... did..... not..... fuck..... him......" Kairo said and I could tell he was getting pissed.
"Oh my bad... he fucked you." I said looking at him and I could tell my words hurt him, Kairo looked like he wanted to say something but instead, he threw his hands up and walked out of the church. I sat in there for like twenty minutes, before a text came through... it was Anjo telling me that he was outside and I got up and walked out.
"Do you wanna talk about it?" He asked as I slid in the passenger seat, I gave him the rundown of everything that's happened and he let me finish before speaking. "My honest opinion... I don't think your dude cheated, if I was your cousin I'd be pissed about what happened to me, look at it from his side of things you took eighteen months from him, it's natural that he would want to get even so fuckin up your relationship is his form of revenge." Anjo said calmly.
"Quincy told me that he was over it, we talked it out and he swore that we were good... I know my cousin he's not the type to say something like that if he didn't mean it and he's also not the type to lie on his dick, if he says he fucked someone then he has...." I said getting pissed at the thought of them fuckin all over again.
"What about your dude? Has he ever given you any reason to think that he'd cheat on you?" Anjo asked and I shook my head. "Aight so you got one person who is definitely pissed at you saying that he fucked your dude even though you say he's straight, then you got another person saying that it didn't happen and from what you tell me y'all have a good relationship. So tell me which is the more logical answer? I'll let you think on it...." Anjo said and I was quiet the entire ride back to the house. When we pulled up Quincy's car was parked out front and I felt my blood starting to boil.
"Ka'Jai let me explain...." Quincy said his face solemn. "I'm not lying when I say that I fucked your dude... but let me explain why I did it before you go off. I was mad at you, I'm still mad at you for what happened. You took eighteen months from my life, eighteen months away from my daughter and my girl.... my ex-girl. I hated you, I wanted you to know how it feels to lose the love of your life. I'm not trying to justify my actions but I want you to see where I'm coming from." Quincy said.
"So instead of coming to me like a man you fucked a nigga... my nigga?" I asked wondering why I haven't socked his ass yet.
"Anger makes you do crazy things..... but love man..... love will have you doing some off the wall shyt. Kairo is so fuckin special like I see something in him that... it's addictive, his smile, his aura, his passion..... I never meant to fall in love with him but I..... I never expected to fall in love with any dude." Quincy said and I swear he almost smiled.
"I don't think you fucked him." I said because this definitely didn't sound like my cousin, Quincy was straight as the lines on paper and there's no way that he would fuck a dude let alone 'fall in love' with one.
"Then tell me how I know about the birthmark on his left ass cheek, the one that's shaped like a heart? Tell me how I know he likes to ride dick facing me because he likes to look into my eyes while he's riding. Tell me how I know that he doesn't use hands when he's suckin dick and how he doesn't have any gag reflexes.... Ka'Jai you keep your sex life private, you know you never told me any of this so how do I know about it." Quincy said and it was like being shot in the heart because everything he was saying was true. "We were together last night..... and I'm sorry but I want to be with Kai....." Before he could finish I punched him dead in the mouth, I probably would've gone further had Anjo, Big John, and Will not grabbed me.
"Ayy calm down." Will said as I tried kicking Quincy in the head, luckily for him he was just outta my reach.
"I'm sorry Ka'Jai...." Quincy said wiping the blood from his mouth and walking towards his car. I broke free from their grasp and started walking down the street. I didn't have a destination I just needed to go somewhere, anywhere because what I was feeling right now was.... pain, unlike anything I had ever felt before.
"Is uhh... is Shane here?" I asked after walking for like an hour, Shane was the only person I could talk to at the moment and though our friendship ended there was still a connection there and I felt like he'd listen.
"I didn't expect to see you here ever again." Shane said in a cold voice as he walked up to the door. I really did him dirty, back when me and Kairo were having our issues he was there for me, I wanna believe we actually became friends and when me and Kairo got our shyt together I cut him off completely.
"I know it's fucked up, me showing up here like this but......" I said and Shane must've sensed my pain because he let out an exasperated sigh and moved aside to let me in, I followed him down to his bedroom.... damn I hadn't been down here in a while and being here just brought up a lot of old feelings.... suppressed feeling that I was definitely considering acting on since Kairo wanted to act out.................................
****** QUESTIONS ******
1) Who should get the next two chapters; Mauricio or Denzel?
2) Who do y'all believe Kairo or Quincy?
