I laid in my hotel room looking up at the ceiling thinking about everything that happened today, I mean there was a lot to unpack here so bare with me; first, there was that nigga O'Shea... yeah I was definitely going to have to knock that nigga out before I left because he gave me snake vibes. Then there was that nigga Toneio... sitting here I could never respect a dude that lets a bitch nigga like O'Shea treat him like that, now I'm fuckin heartless but I would never pull no shyt like that and if I even suggested it Amari would.... and that's the final thing I needed to come to terms with. After my sexual high had worn off, the guilt set in, I felt weird... like I was cheating on Amari which was crazy because A) I wasn't gay (I'll accept the term BI but I wasn't full on gay), B) Me and Amari weren't together because I didn't date niggas, I'd fuck them but I wasn't trying to be in a relationship with no nigga, and C) Just thinking about that dude had my dick hard and I felt this uncontrollable desire to hear his voice, to see his face. But I was lazy, my phone was on the other side of the room and I really didn't feel like getting up to get it, as I debated on whether or not I wanted to walk the five feet to get it my phone started ringing and I took that as a sign I needed to get up.
"What you doing up?" I asked looking at Amari's face on the screen.
"Nigga it's only 10 here.... what are you doing up? I figured your ass would've been sleep or something." Amari said and I noticed he was wearing his hair down, that didn't really mean shyt to me but I couldn't help but remember when I was fucking him slowly while running my fingers through it.
"Couldn't sleep... I was up thinking..... I uhh.... I fucked this dude earlier and I liked it A LOT but it didn't have shyt on what we do." I said averting my eyes and then quickly looking back at the screen to gauge his reaction. "I wore a condom if.... you know you're worried." I said wondering why in the fuck I was telling him all of this.
"Nay... you've just had a sexual awakening, it's surprising to absolutely no one that you're little hoe ass wanna stick your little dick in everything you can." Amari said smiling and I pulled my dick out and let it rest on my stomach.
"Don't try to play me Amari... you know damn well a nigga named Nayquinn is blessed." I said and I could see the lust in his eyes and that shyt made my dick hard, so I quickly put it back in my shorts before I started some freaky shyt. "But the dude I ran a train on... it made me do some reflecting on how I treated Sayon, I'm not the type of nigga who apologizes for shyt but I did fuck him over a lot and it's making me feel guilty." I said quietly.
"Wait... run that back, tell me everything that happened." Amari said and I told him how O'Shea treated Toneio and how I wasn't really rocking with that shyt, don't get me wrong I'm a mean ass nigga but if a dude is willing to come through and fuck me and some random dude I just met, I wasn't going to make him sleep on the floor and I damn sure wasn't going to give him a wet wipe and tell him to clean up... I'd kick him out before I embarrass him like that because that would make me look bad. "That nigga O'Shea seems like a bitch." Amari said laughing.
"Yeah but I couldn't help but notice a lot of similarities between me and him, I can understand why I got a lot of hatin ass niggas because if I even came of an ounce like O'Shea I would want to beat my ass too." I said getting up and walking over to the window.
"Well, your punk ass is finally learning... that's good." Amari said and I remained quiet. "What's on your mind Nay? You're never this quiet."
"Just a lot... thinking about my dad, my little bro Nick, my other siblings Noel, Naya, and Nathan... wondering what they would think about this me, how would they react if they found out that I was fuckin a nigga. I'm thinking about Raynard and what I'm going to do when I finally catch his bitch ass, I'm thinking about that nigga Ziggy, I'm thinking about my cousin Glock who will be up there next week..... I just got a lot going on." I said shaking my head.
