I sat in the doctor's office with Ashanti, my hands were shaking... it was me and Marcelino's birthday and I was receiving the best birthday present ever, the very first look at my unborn child. Even though there wasn't much there, just a small child with barely any features but I was in love.... love I had only felt for one other person and that was Marcelino, but this child had my heart; thank God it wasn't twins though. I looked at Ashanti, who was smiling at the tears in my eyes and I grasped her hand tightly, lately, I hadn't been in contact with her as much as I should but my relationship with her dad was...... That nigga pulled a gun on me and even though the bullets were blanks I couldn't respect that shyt, I had to step up and that's what I was going to do from this moment forward. My biggest fear was turning into my deadbeat, so I couldn't let Ashanti's dad scared me away even though I knew he'd try to; as Ashanti finished up I walked into the lobby where my 'mentor' Iran sat flipping through a magazine. I still wasn't sure about him just yet, he and his brother Izayah were coo but I don't know.... maybe it was my nature to be skeptical of new people but I'd give him a chance, it could be worst, I could be going through what Nayquinn was going through with Will.
"I've been thinking.... you should have a sit down with your dad and brothers. Not to work things out because I get that you're not at that point but to at least let them know how you feel about everything." Iran said and I stood there staring at him. "Look I've been through a lot, I watched as my dad killed my mom and then himself. I became a father after fuckin a girl I had just met while I was in highschool.... although I ended up marrying that girl because I love her but still. But the point is if there was one thing I regret it's that I couldn't ask my dad why."
"Shouldn't it be on my own terms? I mean you're a lot older than me... so you've had time to reflect on your life, I'm still in my prime." I said wishing that I hadn't told him so much about me but then again he had read my file so he already knew my backstory.
"True it should be on your own time but the sooner you get it over and done with the sooner you can focus on what's really important and that's your child. The last thing you wanna do is to go into fatherhood with daddy issues." Iran said and I waved him off, I didn't have 'daddy issues', I just didn't fuck with that nigga and wanted to make his life miserable which I was in the process of doing.
"Mauricio.... our next appointment is in two weeks." Ashanti said walking out and I nodded. We had already decided that we didn't want to know the gender until the baby was born, although I was praying for a girl. "Y'all ready to go?" Ashanti asked and I nodded, before dropping her off we stopped and got her a Spicy Buffalo Pizza with extra jalapenos, these last few days Ashanti has been wanting nothing but spicy food which made me nervous because I didn't know how that would affect our kid.
"She'll be alright, when my wife was pregnant with our twins all she could keep down was spicy food... well spicy and sweet foods." Iran said as we pulled up to the group home. "Look it was fun getting to know you these last few days and I'll be back sometime net month to check up on you, but if you need anything feel free to call any time, day or night." Iran said and honestly I wasn't feeling this mentoring thing but Marcelino seemed to enjoy hanging out with Izayah, speaking of my twin......
"Really?" I asked walking into Marcelino's bedroom, my bro was straddling Marcelino's lap and they were trying to suck each other's face off. "Marcelino, I thought you were putting him on probation for two weeks... it's been four or five days."
"I can't help it, look at this face.... plus it's my birthday." Marcelino said grabbing Piru's beard and shoving his tongue in Piru's mouth... they disgusted me. I walked out of the room and almost made it to my bedroom when Marcelino stopped me. "Ayy hold up.... I thought you should know I invited Mystik and Magik to the party this weekend." Marcelino said and I really wished he'd stop trying to push them on me, I'd talk to them when I was ready, not before.
