Not going to lie, I was surprised he even let me in... these last few months since he got released from the hospital have been tumultuous at best; but Quincy was family and in some ways the only family I had left. My mom was gone, my dad was locked up with zero percent chance of getting out, as far as I knew that was it... I didn't want to spend the rest of my life beefing with my cousin over something we could've talked out or if he wanted we could done like we use to when were little talk our problem out with our fist. I wasn't innocent, I had beat the fuck outta Quincy, putting him in a coma for eighteen months... he had every right to be pissed and quite frankly I would've been more nervous if he had easily forgiven me. I know it's not my place to tell someone when to get over something, but I had to at least try to mend things with my cousin; that shyt with Kairo was.... fucked up but if Kairo was ready to forgive him then what do I look like holding on to that anger? I sat the gifts I got for Quincy's daughter down on the table and stood there waiting, with him he could look calm as possible and just start swinging so I needed to be on guard, just in case. We stood there taring at each other until finally he sat down and motioned for me to do the same, I sat down but was still ready for anything when he let out a low sigh.
"I hope you don't think these gifts means that all is forgiven Ka'Jai... we still got a lot of shyt we need to discuss and handle. You know me, I've always been the nigga that takes things overboard... you punch me, I'm smacking you and your mom.... you stole eighteen months of my life and I'm considering making sure that you don't get a moments peace for at least half of that...." Quincy said looking into my eyes.
"So what? You're just going to keep fuckin with me for seven more months?" I asked getting annoyed. "I always knew you were a petty ass nigga but I never took you for the bored type... you could spend that time actually catching up on everything you've missed and yet you rather spend that time fuckin with me.... it's kinda sad when you think about it." I said shaking my head.
"Nigga I said I was 'considering it' meaning that my mind hasn't been made up yet.... Truth be told I don't like beefin with you Ka'Jai, there was a point where you were more than my cousin you were my best friend and brother, I guess that's why I was so mad at you... because with us being as close as we were, I never in a million years would've thought that you would hit me with a lamp, causing my brain to swell and my skull to fracture." Quincy said.
"That day... there was a lot going on, I was angry about the shooting and I blamed you for almost getting me killed, then we started arguing and I don't know.... I blacked out, almost losing my life caused something in me to break and in that moment I just..... I've regretted that day every second since it happened. I've spent the entire time you were in the hospital working odd jobs to make sure you had this apartment when you woke up..... because I never doubted that you would and I was hoping this wouldn't necessarily fix what happened but it would be a start." I said looking at him.
"I missed a lot... my daughter's birth, your mom's funeral.... so much and you think getting me this average ass apartment would serve as an acceptable peace offering? You didn't even have some pussy waiting for me when I got home.... hell I would've even settled for a feminine ass nigga, something." Quincy said and I couldn't tell if he was joking or not.
"Is that why you were over Shannon's with Ja'Koda?" I asked looking at him.
"Nah, I know Ja'Koda from around the way and he was telling that they had some good ass weed... we went over there to smoke, that's it." Quincy said shrugging and again I wasn't sure if I trusted him because for all I knew he could be playing mindgames like he did with the Kairo situation.... wait, I'm supposed to be letting that go. "Although... I'm neither confirming nor denying that something, maybe, possibly, did or didn't happen... all I'm saying that IF it did, it wouldn't be anyone's business but mine and one of the two of them... again, I'm not saying anything happened but I'm saying IF." Quincy said talking in circles.
